Time Is Bliss...

In two more days, 2011 is going to be washed away by happy waves and welcome in 2012! 

Dear 2011, thank you for everything.. Alhamdulillah I get to meet 2012. Amin. 

2011 is wonderful, no matter how bitchy, blissful, blabla it is to me.... I enjoy this year. 

All the Hellos and Goodbyes I said to people. I wish it could just be a hello And no goodbyes.

I Learned how to control my temper FINALLY at the very end of this year. Control my ego... Thats the most ugliest thing in me,. My fuckin BIG EGO... One of the things that i LOVE the most i Met New friends, N i LOVE THEM...  So Here's a list Of the people I Love THE MOST whom i Met in 2011.. N seriously I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!

* Those i knew From Work*

D'yana <3

Zaidi

Mam Noy

Normi

Azri

Zulaikha

Atiqah

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Mam Suhana

Farziana*Nana*

Amira.

These are the names that meant ALOT to me...Idk.. I somehow care for them... Just that i shy to n dunno how to show..  

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I met this girl Nadeerah while queuing at watsons .. Damn the que was long that day . I bought a shampoo n conditioner n she bought a VS hair curler. she asked me " Is the shampoo good?" N i said yes it makes ur hair soft n blabla.. We talked about hair n stuffs, In the end.. We exchange number ... Till now we sms one another.. Funneh.

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Life ....People come n go... Treasure them to the fullest. U might never know when Is the last day you will spend with them.. ..

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Hmmm dunno what else to blog uh.,.. Yesterday's xmas Party was fun... I laughed alot . HAhA!

~Took this pic from Shahidah's Fb Photo.oops. 

Love this pic the most.. Love D.

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Err

What do You do when you feel all alone in a crowded room?

The Small pills that makes you high n dose off to sleep..

The smoke that flows out your mouth n how the stick got shorter as it burns.. 

It Just Calms You Down Dont They?

Sigh.. Well Its Much More easier to smile though you are hurt inside rather than having a hard time telling the world why you are sad when being ask WHY..

I remember back then when i was a young girl i was so depressed about something*which i dont wanna say* that i end up cuttting my wrist.. i remember once the cut is too deep that i need to bandage it... classmates made fun of it.. HA HA. . My Bestfriend Aqilah/Kaylanna is really paranoid i might do it again.. which i hope i wont do it again which i just did last month n THANK GOD no one realized... But i did told my Hubby n Aqilah i cut..my.....wrist.. Cuz i was guilty not listening to them...

Yeah. FML.. Darn It, I still hate it when someone ask me " ARE YOU OK?"
Shut up... But i dont really mind if the people i love ask am i ok...  Hmmm

My Brain is seriously about to explode in ANY minute .. Theres too much things i need to think about.. Too MUCH TOO MANY TOO ALOT. k WTH. .. I'd remain silent n not talk.. Im Just too lazy to talk.. n im NOT in a bad mood my dear colleagues.. Just, Idk.. Haha. Im losing Myself... I dont even know who is that girl who is looking at me in the mirror.. Who am I?

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GAHH! Im SO STRESSED UP! Lets Look at Johnny Depp

Johnny Depp Y U So Hot?
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After around four weeks of not seeing your cute face..

FINALLY! Tmr Is FRIDAY! n Im Gonna Hug Ya! Lets have tons of laughters n cuddles n blablablalblablablablablablablablablablabla...

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WOOH! Cant wait for 28 January! Going to a makeup course  n blablabla. Will get a certificate, N..

A FREE MAKEUP KIT! EEEEEEEEEEEP! CANT WAITT!

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Dear Nurul Aqilah Binte Asri.. I MISS U LA BACIN! !! AGGHHH!!! ME NEED YOU PLEASE!!!

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I Miss HAZWAN*Hubby*, I miss DabaDeeWaffle, I Miss Zaidi

I MISS Normi!

Haishh

Anna Alanna Tatianna 

The One That Got Away

Home

Bored as helll.. Without DabaDeee , Without Hazwan > my Dearest Sweetheart.

I Miss You so much!

Tomorrow's FRIDAYY!

YES BABY! ITS FFFRRRRRRRRIIIDDAAAYYY!! 

cant wait to meet DABADEEEE!! And 7 More days to seee my HUBBY!!!!

GOOODNESS! i miss you so much! Me want to hug you till your eyeballs popped  out!

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I actually typed alot of things,, then i clicked on something and NOW ITS ALL GONE!! THE TEXT AND PHRASES N QUOTES ARE GONE!!! OR THE HORROR!

Blogger you BITCH!! Haishh

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Oh ! I Believe in monsters, And they Live under my bed, and when i shower, i know that when my eyes is covered with soap and that i have to close my eyes, those monsters are actually watching me.. O_O

KATY PERRY!

Well i love megan fox more than anybody else

She's my role model! LOOK AT THIS SEXY AWESOME HOT MEGAn FOX! i go lesbian on her.. 

ok

back to katy perry

was bored the whole day at home so

I sang 'the one that got away' by Katy Perry And here it goes..

But before you press PLAY..

Mute up this blog music first right at the bottom.. Hope you like it! <3

LALALALA!!

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Well WHO CARES

Whats the point when there's tons of people around you yet no one have the heart to hear you out?

But when it comes to others, you'd tend to hear their problems, sharing something funny/random/sad/their sorrows, hearing attentively to each and every words and letters others are telling you. But when it comes to yourself? No one listen.. Neither do they make a sound or remark of what you were talking about.. Worst, they went talking about other things or skipped you and talk to someone else.. PFFT..

That was why i decided to keep silent when its the time i need to,,, Infact, i feel like keeping mute always. 

"Are You Okay?"

Thats one of the common question that i've been asked.. 

ALWAYYSSS.. Firstly... Do i freaking look ok when you ask me that? Secondly, do you really mean it when you ask me that? Thirdly, WHO CARES?

No, seriously, who cares.. WANNA KNOWW WHYY? YOU WANNA KNOW WHY??

Cuz humans are hypocrites, n i'd keep on saying it that humans are hypocrites..  

They asked whether you are ok for attention.. well its like that to me.. You could see if someone really cares about you or not.. They are asking you whether you are ok, but what could they do about it when you tell them whats going on.. Worst to worst, they went sharing among others about yout 'Pathetic'' problems..

Talking behind your back n stuffs.. GAH im just uttering nonsense

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Oh Wait..

YOU DONT HAVE A DICK!

I FUCKING LOATHE YOU! HATE YA! Each time i wanna talk to dabaDEEEEEE you were like grabbing her away from me n fuckin talks to her n shoots in during MY conversation... MY CONVERSATION U FUCKTARD!!! N This is also ONE of the FUCKING reason WHYYY i wanna keep silent!! GRRR!!!

I wish n i pray n hope you FUCKING die!! Talking behind people back? DAMN u smell like asshole!

Its NOT my attitude that sucks, Its Just that YOU ACT LIKE A BITCH! Act like a man!

N i dont care who is reading this,,, FUCK YOUUUUU LITTLE BOY! * cuz u dont look grown up to me... GO hide under your mom's armpit*

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*im so pretty!* ~prasans, i really say i pretty n i HATE it when people say i look like someone n i'd say " I LOOK WAY PRETTIER THAN HER!" yep, me n my stuck up attitude~

I Lazy to talk... Lazy to make noise... Im already lazy to complainn.. 

Whatever comes, Im gonna take it a it goes..

WTH am i talking about?

PFFFT

I Miss dabaDee.. Sometimes it feels like i only have Her n My Hazwan.. No one else..

Cuz only the two of them are willing to hear me out.. I Love the both of you so much.. <3

What would life be without you Baby..

Me want to Wake up every single morning and the frst thing i see is you still snoring like a pig..

HAHA!! I seriously laugh alone.. Siaow

Okie dokieeee...

TIme to sleeep

Gotta work at 9am n meet that dorky waffle at 11am! 

WEEEE!

A silent mind

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Quote: No one should ever control your life.. The movie of your life, You are the director, you are the producer, you the main cast, n you are the one who is going to shout CUT n ACTION to yourself...

DABA 'DEEEEEE' DABADAAA

Friendship.

What if you have that one and only friend whom you always think about? The one who told you "you are going to be ok" no matter who brings you down or talk behind your back or tells you that you cant make it? The one who you woke up n quickly check your phone to read the messages she sent you,, The one you eat with every single day? The first friend I ever cried for , for the slightest thing that hurt my feelings.. Humans are fragile creatures aren't they? Too sensitive over words n actions others mistreat them.. 

Thats me... Im SUPER SENSITIVE.. Today im a bad friend... I hurt an Angel feelings just because of my bad habbit... "REVENGE IS SWEET".. thats what i always say.. But today.. revenge is not that sweet after all... Its bitter.. n i hate it,,  And because of me, That Angel is hurt...

Why do i tend to make the people whom i love cry for me? I always did that...

I have to stop being ego.. I need to be strong n not become over sensitive

 I really would like to go Out with you Dearest Friend
May Allah let our friendship last though how complicated things are..
Love You Sweet Lil Angel <3

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Alone When Soulmate's not here

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This is by far STILL my fav pic EVER...

My name made out of leaves... So AWWWWW 

Miss you so much...

Haish.. Though how u annoys n irritates me ALOT of times..

I'd Always Love you..~~

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Johnny DEPP!!! Lets makes Babies together! 

HAHA! So Handsome.. 

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Texting someone now. So Happy we are ok now.. 

I do CARE FOR YOU OK? n i will always will... 

Sorry a million n trillion n zillion.... 

Hit my face with a pan if you dare. 

<3

Love you so much weirdo girl...

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Im Tired... I Need These

Nights~

Yaaaawwwwnnn!

Anna Alanna Tatianna

When you are alone in a crowded room

Tears..

Why do they flow during the moments i dont need them? I just want to be happy.. 

Fake smiles, fake feelings. Im just sick of this.

I miss you.. i miss you so much... All i need id you right here cuddling like we always do... You kissing my forehead n stare deep in my eyes n tell me how much u love me like you always do. I love you so much.. I know you love me too.. I miss you too much that i cried wondering do u miss me too..

My heart is fragile.. Too fragile.. how many times do i need to say that im sensitive.. Every LITTLEST wrong doings n words would hurt me.

Dear you, why are you so clumsy? You'd tend to hurt my heart without you knowing it.. N im mad/sad/ gave u a silent treatment.. you'd ask me WHY as if you didnt did anything wrong.. 

Dear you... I love you so much.. Every single Day i wish , I chant prayers in my heart to Allah making sure He's always protecting you, always sheltering you, never make you sad n always put a smile on your face.. 

Though how you bring me down, You'd always be my hero..

No metter who mad me laugh who made me cry who im with... Theres always you in my head.. All i wanted Is you beside me always... 

If i could live a million years, Then i'd wait for you for a million years.. 

My love for you is eternity,.. Insya'Allah.. 

Maybe Im not The only one for you, But you are the ONLY one for me.. 

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Im not good in playing pretend.. Each time im mad at you, i wont pick up your phone call.. I wont text you back..  I cried all night on the days we quarreled ... Tears became my lullaby.. 

but thinking of the days you stabs my heart, its still here.. It hurts..  Hearts are like mirrors.. When its broken, n u try to fix it... You could still see the cracks on it.. 

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My words are harsh when im mad.. Im sorry.. 

Sigh.
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*Im a Loner. I dont have a gigantic group of friends . People dont miss me. Im never the first person anyone looks for in a crowded room. Im just me. Take it Or leave it*

They wonder why i start blogging again..

Who cares if i need anything to share about.. Who cares when i cry?

Its more like im talking to myself when i blog..

Who cares if im sick.// Who cares if im actually crying inside while i fake a laugh on the outside..Fuck you n i show u that... NO ONE cares..

Im a loner child,

I prefer to be alone..Hmmm Lets seee.. 

I do have a bestfriend but she is busy with work.. Sometimes i do wish she could meet me up just for awhile when im having problems JUST for a minute will do to cheer me up.. Or call me in the middle of the night when i suddenly share her my probs.. i always wish she was here.. i always do.. I feel like im always a nuisance to her always sharing my probs n all..  Honestly sometimes i feel like u r not happy being with me anymore. i just felt that way....  But Naah.. Haish. But I love u Aqilah, i always do.. 

My guy? He is BUSY in camp serving this country. How do i get to share with him.. besides... Gahhh.. i dont know what to say.. 

Other friends? I dont know.. I dont even really 100 percent trust the people i love..

Humans are backstabber. They Pretend.. U might never know if they sees n sound n act like they love u but deep down they just wanna kill you somehow.. We Humans Are two faced mother fuckin creatures...

I dont trust anyone. N thats why i dont have much friends.. 

I only trust myself..  I HONESTLY DONT TRUST A SINGLE HUMAN BUT MYSELF..

Thats me

I Never Wanted To Say Goodbye.. Never

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Heart Could Really Burst Into Flames.

So this is me... 

Im not that feminine lovey dovey girl who loves girly stuffs n shit.. Neither am i someone who'd entertain bullshits from the people i hate so much.. Yes I'd tend to show you my fucked up face to the all those jerks i hate.. I dont hate people for no reason.. There might be something you did that made me act that way...

Like acting Bossy, bitching about me behind my back, u r fuckin too proud of yourself or just ur attitude,,

I could be silent, i heard everything. Every single shit people talk about me.... But i just smile.. Furious. I could feel my heart burns at times.. But im me.. patience is testing me... Allah is testing me.. Let them say what they want to say... Whatever bad things U might say to me... I'd swallow it n say Alhamdulillah..
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SAD! Two weeks of not seeing you?

Two weeks without your hug? Two weeks without your goofy face.. Ok im overreacting..

Do take good care of yourself..GRR! .. Miss n Love  So much u clumsy dorky yet so adorable boy.. <3

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Have u ever thought why a stranger became so close to you and you felt like its been years that you know him/her.. I say its fate. N worst , When you love that stranger so much, n theres just some divider that divide us apart n you just couldnt get close to him/her.. 

Imagine the laughter .. Laughing till you had tummy cramps n just couldnt breathe due to too much laughing.. Haha... N automatically shares problems n secrets n trust one another like we were siblings.. 

There must be a reason why fate let us meet this way.. There must be a reason why Allah made us walk this life.. Memories dont decay... Memories are like romantic novels u could flip through the pages n smile n cry picturing every single memories.. ~ Love ya Stranger...

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Eyes are sore .. 5 hours to sleepp.. YAWWNNN...

Been eating alot this past few days... Gotta start dieting again soon... Yawwn..

With a confused Brain~~