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First Of All...

5th November 2012

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MD SHAHRIN!!!!
HAppy 21st Bday to you Mr Scorpio!

Thank you for being the bestest of the best of the bestfriend. HAHA!

Stay happy.. keep Smiling. 

May you be blessed by Allah always..

And HAHAHAHA! BOTAK guy in police now huh?

Police Uniform.. Handsome!

LOL!

Picture taken on 3rd November..

heart to heart talk.. problems shared and stuffs..

 theres so much i could relate to you Mr Wabbit! TEEHEE!!

(im going to hurt u very soon ='(  i know... i have to..  and im sorry..  )

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HALLOWEEN

Halloween .. I was working on that day..

And since i work in town area.. As i step outside workplace..( ended work at night)

there was some people dressing up for Halloween.. AWESOME!!!

Zombies, Skeletons, Kakak.. AWESOME SH*T!!

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Mommy is in hospital now waiting fer lil sis to come out.. she loves mom's tummy so much huh?

i wonder when she will be out.. hopefully today?

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Fauzi texted me at 2am just now asking how am I n he miss me. PFT. HAHA!

MISS YA TOOOO!!!!! GRRR!

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Life is super amazing after I Broke off with Hazwan!!! 

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Gosh I Miss D'Yana... HAHA!

And Aqilah if you are reading, i miss you..

HAZWAN

I guess its only here i could let my heart out besides talking to Allah for everynight and also.. to get through you...

Dear you..
Its hard to say that my feelings for you has always been the same.. Its hard to lie to you that i dont love you. Its hard to fake out hatred to you. Its hard to say goodbye.. Its hard to make you hate me everyday..
but I have to do this
Listen sayang. what i feel all this while.. I feel that our love is a fake,..
Think again..

I feel and i know your family couldnt accept me for who i am. If they could, They'd never ask me to change my job and accept me for what im working as.. Have my parents ever told you what should you do in life? they KNOW you dropped out from poly, but they said nothing. They see us being in love and they dont wanna hurt my feelings especially for 'sounding' you what job should u do n what you really should do. Maafkan , Tapi ibu dan Ayah awak tak hormat kite, they tak sepatutnya 'sound' my educations and jobs .. because.. IM A GIRL n its like IM the one yang kene kasi awak makan in future...
And remember the day your parents said "Nina tak keje air steward? ada rupa ada height,...." ... "rupa ada, pelajaran takde" ape maksudnye? pernah ke sekali sekala my parents pandang rendah dekat awak? My tears are sincere that day. I hate your family. Belom ada pertalian apa2 dengan awak, diorang mampu buat Anna nangis.. Congrats
And if  they are willing to accept me, there'll be no such thing as "Kitorang belom bersedia"

Hari Raya..
My mom cooked for your family.. And Upon hearing my cousins came over and you cancelled? Your family is not ready to meet my cousins? My mom put aside alot of food for you. My dad is really excited.. finally he get to talk with your parents.. Tau tak berapa tergurisnya hati Ibu Babah kita? Berapa sedihnya Mamin? Berapa Hampanya Shasha pasal dia nak sangat jumpa awak? Sekurangnye tak boleh ke AWAK sorang je yang datang rumah? Awak da kecik kan hati Ibu kita. memang ibu ganas orangnya.  Tapi Ingat... Sebelum kite bercinta, kita pernah cakap, kite TAK AKAN berkawan dengan orang yang tak hormat ibu babah kita,.. Ibu dan Ayah awak TAK hormat IBU BABAH kite.. Ibu awak ade mintak maaf dengan ibu kite pasal she cancel? no she did not.. Anna marah sangat.. sebab tu Anna tak nak hormat your parents...
Sekurangya ibu kite punye keganasan boleh nampak, dia akan tunjuk kalau dia benci pasal perasaan dia selalu ikhlas,,, Keluarga awak? Its the other way round..
My dad lost hope on you. And i love my Babah so much and you know it... I always listen to him...
Im leaving You Hazwan. I
I moved on...
Im leading a new life, without you..
Im stronger without you
happier without you, cuz with you, i am not me... i wasnt how i am when i am with you.. i was super cheerful before i was with you.. never ever did i once spit out any vulgarities before till the day im with you.

Anna mampu berdoa je agar Allah bukakan Akal dan fikiran awak dan keluarga awak yang sangat tak matang tu.. Ajar keluarga awak macam mana nak hormat keluarga orang lain, terutamanya anak perempuan orang... takpe.. ingat, awak ade adik perempuan.. Allah Maha adil,, .. N Moga Allah buka kan Akal dan fikiran awak yang Teramat singkat tu apa tu haram dan halal.. apa tu dosa.. . Minta Maaf kalau bahasa Anna kesat. Tapi Dunia Dan Akhirat Anna tidak akan maafkan kelaurga awak pasal buat ibu babah kita kecil hati, And I will never forgive you what have you taken away from me. ;'( . Hanya Allah je tau. Nanti di akhirat nanti Anna akan tuntut.
Barang2 yang awak kasi Anna, Anna nk kasi dekat orang lain... ataupun Anna buang..
I've deleted All pictures. I dont want any single memories of you.
Anna kecil hati. Hati Anna Terguris. Anna ingin megucapkan terima kasih sangat.
Walaupun Hazwan tak minta Maaf dekat Anna, Maafkan Anna..
Allah sayang orang yang meminta maaf walaupun dia sedang bersedih n dia tau dia tak bersalah...

Do take good care of yourself Hazwan.

Tired And Shagged

Soo..

First of all,,, D'yana if you are reading this. I MISS U SO MUCH! =(

Sigh i hope u n Mr Teddy n Zaidi are doing good. =)

Well... Next week,,

Is the beginning of my acting class WOHHOOO! its under Suria/Mediacorp n Woaa!!! I hope i turn into somebody popular n say out on the TV screen that i Miss D'YANA so much =( 

December

Henna Art Class under Syra Skins.. O_O yep. i need to tell BF about this, hahha! Hmmm

I work Part time in i dowan to tell u where...
HAHAHHA!

Im freaking tired! I was told via email i need to memorize scripts. stress!

Hmmm thats the update!

OH! and next month! HELLO PINK HAIR! HAHHAHHA~~~~~~

*side only ah* crazy ah i wanna dye whole hair pink?

June is Coming!!!!

22 June is Aqilah's Bday

And 23 June is My beloved Danish *lil bro* bday

And Ramadhan !! 20 July? 

EXCITED!

Peace n Loves Angels!

I MISSS UU D'YANA!!!! 

Kisah Hati

Did a cover
Listen ok? The first malay song i ever cover.. Haha!
N oh, dont forget to turn off my blog's background music

Shaheizy Sam! My Husband! LOVE YOU!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!! Wish i could meet him n kiss him.. 

O_O

Life has been Wonderful! Alhamdulillah!

Im getting more obsessed with Shaheizy Sam each n every day O_O \

HAHA! Tired!!!! Been doing makeups for people, baking for people and working n all! AHH! 

BUT I LOVE BUSY LIFE! Woohooo!!!!!

Peace n Loves! Assalamu'alaikum!

15/4/2012 8pm

Just done solat Maghrib.. Alhamdulillah...'

Text Aqilah like three days ago before meeting Rin... I apologize n stuffs, Alhamdulillah she forgave me, im happy.. But.. None of the text she sends me be it arguements or laughters,,, None of them have i let my friends read the text she send me... I got to know she let Her friend read the text i sent her.. . Haha. Its ok... Sabar je Anna. I just want her to be happy. Amin

12 April 2012
My day was ok, Happy. Kept laughing as usual.. Haha,,
Went to Ba'Alwi to hear some talks from Habib Hassan before Maghrib.. He taught us that Allah loves those who knows how to keep secrets among themselves, those who never forget to solat,and those who always apologizes first even when they feel like its not their fault. Allah loves those who is down to earth and always remembers HIM.. And he shares what is our relationship with all the Arwahs ... About Time, getting faster n faster, its a sign of Qiyamat... Na'uzubillah.. =( 

Amin. My Thursday is good ^^

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13 April 2012

WENT OUT WITH SHAHRIN!!!!!!!

Md Shahrin Bin Mokhtar! Amek Kau nama penuh! handsome jugak budak gila ni....HAHHA!
I had fun!!! Battleship wasnt that good.. hmm. but ok ok ah... Recommended him Tomyam Banmian and its not as yummy as i always ate it.. O_O just your luck buddy. Hahha! Shared stories n stuffs.. ^^
Going home time, we joked n laughed at banglas n pinoys. he could do just anything to make me laugh... HAHA!

So sweet he sent me home n peep n my Black the Bunny Rabbit outside my door. hahha!!

miss ya!!

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14/4/2012

Thought tk  jadi went out with Hazwan, he wake up nv text, so i changed back to my home clothes.. n Suddenly appears outside my home! AHH! NEED tO GET READY!!! HAHA!
Wore the dress he bought me n he called me Katy Perry. HAhaha! Blush2 pleaseee!
Ate roti prata n babah cooked mee siam goreng. HAHA! Babah so Tiut!
Head to find someones gift and we went to  Far East then ION.. Yeah... Video... i was shocked when he stopped me from video taking.. Kindda harsh... He ajak me to Tongseng i just nod.. i held my tears all the way n told myself to be strong...sigh.. yaya he pujuk me saying he's not ready to be recorded n sorry n bla2 ..n i acted happy which im still not happy... Im only really happy when i saw those delicious siew mais in tong seng ^^ .. mmm yummy!!
end the day >sat at esplanade, i kept laughing there!  had fun! hahaa!!!

15/4/2012

5.50am.. open my eyes for solat subuh n went off to jog, slept for 2 hours after that..

whateverlah, lazy to makeup today...

had lunch with Hazwan ... had Tom Yam Banmian.. mmm nyum..  i had fun today.. so sweet of him, he pays my phone bill, theres alot that i need to repay him,, he has done alot , we tried hazelnut with milk base from coffee bean... its superb!! ='),, hmmm,love u.. kept laughing n Wan kept poking me n i utter nonsense , laugh n laugh n laugh... i felt happy ^^ until when i got home n see a video of Hazwan's friend recorded him n he dont need to be ready to be recorded.  y u talk world? sigh.

ntahlah.... u made me cry yesterday n u made me cry while im doing my solat maghrib.. hmm. 

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nvm.. whatever happens, Alhamdulillah... Amin Ya Allah.. Allah is always with me.. i believe ^^

Assalamu'alaikum

8.47pm 8/04/2012

Ya Allah yang maha kasih,pengampun,penyayang,memehami,da segala puji bagiMu Ya Allah..=')
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Just done solat Isyak, Alhamdulillah.
Its another happy day today, Kak Leny*abang's Gf* treat my family n I lunch at Teh Traik Mm yummy!

Theres A chicken beside Teh Tarik!! OMG! Ya Allah SO TIUT!!! wish i could bring it home.. but theres already two kitties.. Yup, no more three kitties, Orange was sick so yesterday was his last day at home.. Sigh.. Sad. ='( .. I'll always remember you Orange, Love you so much.
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Yesterday went to Jcube with My dearest Hazwan and Its SUFFOCATING! too many human beings! Hahaa! I enjoyed my day though. went to see THE VOW at Shaw in Jcube! I feel like Sitting on a Batmobil!

Like Batmobil Seat right???? HAHA!
Oh well, Alhamdulilah its a blissful day yesterday Amin, Thank you Sayang for making me laugh n smile like you always do. Sayang dia! Cant wait To Meet you Next Saturday, 

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Anna rindu awak!!  

MAkin Hari makin sayang, makin teruk cinta Anna dekat Awak... Makin lebat rasa rindu ni.. 

Alhamdulillah keluarga Anna pon sayang awak,.. Anna akan tetap pada janji Anna, Anna akan selalu ada disisi awak sayang...Anna sayang Hazwan, Anna cinta awak..Anna nk jadi Isteri kepada Awak, Anna nk buatkan awak air,sarapan tiap pagi, jaga makan minum awak, jaga awak bila awak sakit, siapkan baju awak, Anna nak bina masjid dengan awak. Insya'Allah..
Semoga Allah melindungi kite, lindung kite berdua dari penyakit,maksiat, dan Semoga Allah kekalkan jodoh kite berdua sayang,. Amin.
Cinta kite memang kite dua tak tau macam mana cinta kami berdua bermula, ni semua takdir, Takdir yang dimainkan dari Allah, Terima Kasih Ya Allah kerna membukakan pintu hati Anna kepada Hazwan. Alhamdulillah..
Anna akan tetap doakan awak sayang. 

Amin..

=')

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Weee! Tomorrow meeting Amalina for RTL! BBDC!!! here i come again!! WOOHOOO!
Ok i can smell the food ibu cooking now! FISH HEAD CURRY BBY! WOOH! HUNGRY!

P.s-Md Shahrin, stay calm, be happy though how hard life could be, close your eyes, pray, Allah is always there dearest friend! Have Fun with your gf! Wink2!!
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I cant describe how happy i am. Alhamdulillah.

Ok! thats it fer today!!

Peace Burps n Fart! *oops da batal air smbahyang! HEHE

Assalamu'alaikum!!

6 April At 4.30am

Im getting more happier each and every day now.. idk why,,
besides my lappy's broken n now theres a BIG monitor infront of me.. Old skoooll
Whatever it is.. Alhamdulillah, i still have a..computer.

Well someone said Aqilah said im a stupid Pakistani in tweeter.. haha! Well.. Alhamdulillah she call me stupid for Allah gave me brains to think and,READ THE QUR'AN ,so i cant be as stupid as she thinks... if i dont read the Qur'an then its a waste my mom sends me to religious class when i was a kid..its funny she dont think i solat n all i think cuz i dont go around in fb n tweeter saying " i going to praayyy nooww". up to u what u wanna do but when i reach my hand in the air to Allah theres always your name saying Panjangkan lah umur Aqilah dan berkatkanlah hidupnya Ya Allah, ringankanlah beban nya.. its like a habbit to doa for her with a heart that is Ikhlas..... anywayysss..  Hmmm.
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Thats The TOUGHEST and by far THE MOST CHALLENGING cake i've ever Bake!

Ya Allah I almost gave up molding the fondant n stuffs! PHEW!
And Hazwan loves it... the taste is all chocolatey inside! MMM YUMM!
This Was his birthday*the picture*.. Happy 22nd darling. semoga Allah selalu akan ada di sisi awak sayang. Love u.. <3
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Jet Black Hair n all bangs now! WEE!
I Love it!
n i lost weight... but my cheeks are still here.. just stay ok pipi?
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Bloody Marry please go soon.. i wanna follow babah to Masjid Ba'Alwi On EVERY THURSDAY! Sigh..
Solat jema'ah with the rest of the people in the mosque and all.. mmmm serene feeling..

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Been talking n catching up with Rin. Boy u are one someone that always make me smile HAHA!!
Funny cute lil dude!
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Good Friday, U Better be good. Haha!

Chills n burps n peace!!

Assalamu'alaikum!

Amin..Its A Happy Day!

MMMMM Cupcakes!!

Baked Nutella cupcakes last week.. Alhamdulillah its yummy n delicious!!

Gave some to Hubby's family n Sis In Law *Kak Leny, Abng's Gf* N they loved it!!!! hehe!! Mm Nyum2!

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Ohhh!! What a day!

I enjoyed today so much! Hang out with Zaidi And Amalina baby!!

We kept laughing laughing n laughing telling ghost stories and scream in fear at Coffee Bean.. HAHA!!!

Zaidi's scream really makes me shocked!! Naughty Boy!!

Too scared of all those creepy stories, i asked my mom to fetch me at the bus stop.. HEhe! Sorry Ibu! I Love U!

AMALINA DARLING!!!

4 years of friendship and still counting. Inya'Allah Amin..

Love u So Much ! May Allah Always Shelter you bby love!!

Amalina And Zaidi..

Zaidi is by far The MOST ADORABLE guy i've ever known!!

I really appreciate you guys meeting up n make time for each other! Love u Both!

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Im craving for THIS mutton soup at Al-Ameen @ Marsling!!

Omg! Its So Yummy!!!..

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Oh! And the weirdest thing happened yesterday while i was doing my solat asar when im all alone at home.

was doing Takhyat Akhir n someone pulled my Telekong from the back but i just continue n ignore.. Hmm... Let Them burn for disturbing me. Grr!

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N I stole this pic from ur fb bby. HEhe!

Love u!

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ppl who dont make the effort for you while u are trying to make the effort for them really aren't worth it.. 

blocked and deleted..
u r emotionally disturbed. =/

please get a cure!  .
Woohooo!

Oh! Recently Kak Sha posted this on her fb ..
" To see if a girl heart is pure,faithful,Kind N blablabla, is to see whether her bf(s) sticks with them for a long time or not. If Not, then that shows that her attitude/personalities/ inner heart is black/sucks,n thats y her bf couldnt endure it.."
oooohhhhh... Hehe! I Love u Kak Sha!
This could really relate to someone out there.
Thank u!

Still high on slurpee.. grrr!!!

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Peace N Loves N Hugs N Farts N Burps!\

Gd Night!

Asalamu'alaikum!

Me being me

I DOnt Gve A Fuck...

gudge me.. pffft

Im someone who dont give shit of mostly everything thats going on around me..

I live in my own little world sometimes...

Bitch talk about me behind my back, leave me, preach me about religion(like u r an angel ppft) n go on tell me im wrong, tell u what, I dont give a shit on what u think... Im happy with myself.
and if you are not happy about me, well im sorry, i wasnt born in this world to make u happy. Haha...

Lots of friends out there promised ALOT of bullshits, but in the end. hahaha! What a joke u made..
Im just lazy to entertain all sorts of bullshits now.. Peace!!!
P.s,, ey NBCCB.. number kawan aku yang manaaa plak kau ada?? 
and since when u meet me under void deck at night and your mom ask u to come home quick? Since when u meet me under void deck when i need someone??? HAHAHAHHA!! Oh My god! I Laugh Out Loud readin.. Nk tipu /maki2bukak tudung dulu k? tk guna kau buat amalan semua... buat show off je buat apa??? Murtad.. n i dont care if u are reading this or not... cuz igdaf.. HAHAHHAHAHAH!!!! funny!
And talking bout Why my friends leave me.. its me who leave them.. not they leave me..
Maybe your behavior are the main reasons why ur boyfriends dump u n give u a silent break.. awww poor lil 'angel'... there2.. *pt ur head.. I didnt even bring out why ppl left u.. u started it... Oh well... U are just a waste of time.. thats y ppl left u all alone... poor lil thing 

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Bake a cake todayyy!!!

YUMMMYYYY!!! my whole family Loves it... The chocolate seriously melts inside your mouth .. Mmmmm Heaven...
Next week... Im gonna make cupcakes... or cookies. or baked honeyed cornflakes... MMMM

Sins Of sweetness ..

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His name is orange!!

So we have 3 Kitties at home Now.... Orange is cute...

reaallllyyy addoorrabbllee!!! Love him so much!!!
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i drew katy perry for zaidi...

theres a lil note behind for him.. hehe

love n miss u so much..

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Hazwan.. missing you so much!! tmr meeting you! yiiipeeee!!

Im Not Perfect

Im Not Alive when Im Lonely

Thank You March.. You've shown me the true color of a friend whom i love the most
It Tears Right through me cuz you really thought you knew me. but you dont.

Yes i do put high hopes on you cuz u are my close friend, very close. Its you who i look up to when im sad, its u who i look up to when i wanna share my success, its you who i look up to when i fail, its always been you.. you you you.. its your picture whom i keep in my purse besides my boyfriend's pic, its you the only friend i pray to Allah for a long life, and to always shelter you with wealth n happiness always. Its you whom i told my parents that Allah gave me an angel as a friend. Its you whom i think of when i crave for cupcakes, its you who i think of when i bought my favorite Cranberry Bunch cereal, Its you who i think of when i saw a bald man walking and smiled alone thinking of our jokes, its the things that you gave i keep inside a shoe box i labelled "Caution,laughing gas inside"

 I envy any other friends who owns a bestfriend who they can count on..

 Lend a shoulder, tweet to each other non stop, call each other in the middle of the night, sleep over, share secrets and problems,.. I know a friend whom her bff sanggup run to her hearing her boyfriend hurt her just to be there for her.. Lucky her. =')

My mom and my lil bro and even my friend Zaidi was right

Theres no such thing as as BEST FRIEND FOREVER. 

well like you said you dont give a fuck about losing a friend.. Tell u what i do give a shit about losing you. Clearly that shows what kind of a friend you are. Keep telling me u are busy n this n that while u can go out with your other friends. but Im really bershukur  n thank Allah to whoever who put a smile on your face, im happy just seeing your smiley face ..u r sick of me huh? tell u what im getting more sick n tired of you.. I put on all the effort of meeting you, fix a date to meet you regardless on how fucking busy i am, i always make time for you!I heard you were not feeling well the other day. Allah knows how worried i am.. I IMMEDIATELY text you to check whether you are doing ok.. have u ever did that? If i dont text, u sure wont text.. if i dont fix a date for us, we sure wont meet.. Doesnt that shows that u really dont give a fuck? and your reason would be " im busy, doesnt mean i didnt text u means i dont think of you'.Nak Seribu Daya, Tak nak Seribu Dalih.. 

 Yes u are not a good friend..
You are by far the WORST friend i EVER had, cuz no friend has ever made me cry n got me sick to my stomach like U did.

If u wanna leave, so be it.. leave.. Whats the point of you facing Allah everyday solat when u treat people who love u so much this way? Whats the point u preaching to people about religious stuffs when u didnt even fix urself? Im very mad at you this time. i gave up on you. I really do.. Hati ni hancur. Naik sebak hati ni kau buat aku.. Sampai hati.
Thank you so much.

Ya Allah

Sekiranya kalau Anna ada kecilkan hatinya, ringankan la hatinya untuk mengampunkun kan Anna.
Jagalah dirinya,lindungilah dirinya, panjangkan umurnya,..
jangan sesekali membuat dirinya sedih,nangis,sakit, Anna sayang nya sama jugak macam mana Anna sayang Adik Anna sendiri.. Sekiranya kalau kami tak bertemu lagi jangan kasi dirinya melupakan Anna macam mana Anna selalu mengikat kan dirinya. Anna sayang dia.
Amin
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I Miss D'yana's silly laugh. I Miss Zaidi's Smile.. I Miss Normi's Silly behaviour, I Miss Azri's 'r' pronunciation, I miss Noy's Sweet smile, I miss Sir Patrick lame jokes, I miss Nurool's laugther, I miss Amalina's sincerity, I miss it when Cindy said 'My tayar pancit already', I miss bullying Xue Lian.I Miss lookin at Shikin's fold up pants when she is doing fountain... I miss them all.
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Meet the most annoying boy ever.. Sorry I left you alone at Tempinese Yesterday.. I was Just as frustrated as you are.. Dont ever u Do that again.. I Love you my silly stewbee, <3

errr.

Hello Bloggie! Miss mE? * I love my skin.. ANYYWWAAAYYYSSSS..*

Basically.. attachment at Clementi was a disaster.. I dont mind having unpaid leave and not goin to work if they were to attach me to somewhere.. TORTURE!!

Sir Travin kept saying i was LYING when someone called the outlet up and ask me to come home as theres an emergency... How can i lie when someone else is talking on the phone telling you that theres an emergency n NOT me telling you that theres an emergency.? Damn Bald old chinese man are indeed stupid.!

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Sunday, Went to meet my ALL TIME BEST FRIEND for UNDERWORLD!!!

 

Damn the movie was epic!!! infact watched it again yesterday with Hubby.. Damn him. always pisses me off. Grr!

    

before the movie i had starbucks with Aqilah.. Nyummy!! Mocha Frappucino!
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Tomorrow's wednesay. first Theory class for bike with Amalina ... and after that.. Meeting Aqilah again! Weeee!!! Koi and shopping!

Sigh.... Thursday work...
Naik malas nak work. Quit ah,, hehs. Zzzzzzzz

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lalalalalalaaaaaa

The very last week of January been tough for me.. Hmm.. 

Yet I learned ALOT of things.. 

I learnt who should I call a friend, or are they just better off to be ignored..

*P.s- Normi just text me saying she miss me so much and how am i doing and miss gossiping and laughing with me n she says working is bored without me.. ISNT SHE the sweetest thing?*

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28 Of January 2012

Went For Xpress Professional Bridal Makeup Class, And Amalina was my model!
And i got A Certificate! Im a certified Bridal Makeup Artist for Xpress makeup for brides! YAY!
We were the noisiest there i guess? Cuz we just cant stop laughing... HAHA!

 Amalina Is Adorable!

isnt she GORGEOUS!???
Amalina is an angel, she'd cheer me up when im down, and when im about to cry, she'd gave me a tight hug that always put a smile on my face... Love her so much!

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High Fever. Darn IT! 

Zzzzzzzz

Dear Darla Aqilah, I Miss you so much. =(
about me and Hazwan. its personal... no one knows what about us , its just between the two of us... 

And The Ones I Love...

first, this is my blog.. suka hati aku ah nk tulis apa

Stranger

Its not that i didnt want to talk to you on purpose... 

The people surrounds us just cant quit wanting us to have a 'fight' among each other.. Well, you're the one who said that... And I dont want that to happen.. Im scared if we were to argue.. Aren't you scared ? I think we are now. puas hati? Therefore being silent and no contacts is the best...  Theres reasons why i didnt want to talk to you.. First, I feel like im a burden to you, you are always quarreling with your SOMEONE when it comes to me.... Second, i feel like a FUCKING DOG cuz u have to ask permission from your SOMEONE to KEEP me as a friend...  WTH!? What if i said to you " Oh u wanna be my friend? let me ask my Boyfriend" ... FFFFFFFF..  Sumpah Aku macam nk maki je siot! Nasib aku sayang kau! 

Theres more but i dont wanna state it here... It hurts.

But wait .. What If you were the one getting treated like this?????

I understand you.. And I am trying to understand you more but i cant.. Aku bukan Nabi la weiii nk sabar banyak2!  Have you ever Spare a thought of me? Have you ever wonder how i feel when you treat me this way?? Nk lepak ngan org lain boleh lah pulak... Aku? Hah! Malas.... 

I did all this so that you hate me... I dont want you to quarrel with your someone anymore. I just want you to be happy.. Thats all i want..

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that one person....

 If you wanna show how upset you are towards me sampai kau tk nk salam aku... Tu kau pe pasal... If only i could exchange your heart with mine and let you feel how MORE upset i am....If i dont care, I would just dash in the kitchen while you carry that heavy bananas in your hands while im carrying heavy plates.. If i dont care, I wouldn't ask _____ where are you while u went to the toilet during closing.. If i dont care, I wouldnt even take out your bag and punchcard for you.. If I Dont Care, I wouldn't Tap your head and hand out my hand to shake your hand when i wanna go home... No matter how pissed off i am towards you, bila kau nk salam aku ada aku ckp tk nk? Haishhh

haha. buat apa la nk kesah pasal orang yang tk ambil kesa pasal aku kan... hati ni naik merajuk.. da naik malas,,,  naik penat..

Da ramai kawan pe.. \

IM JUST ONE OF YOUR ENTERTAINERS..

But I love you so much darling. ='(

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Hubby fetch me home... N i cried telling him about how i felt about what i typed out above ^^^^^
He cheered me up and made me laugh. Haha! 

Damn you are one cute clown my dearest Hazwan... Shave your mustache or die.
Had Fun doing Shooting for Mike's movie thingy!!! Its nice being an actress you know? HAHHA! 

Miss you so much...

Love you so much Hazwan!

What would life be without you.. Only you knows how to make me smile and whats hiding in my heart

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Dearest Aqilah, Theres alot i need to share with you.. 

I really need to see you but you are always busy with your life and im always busy with mine.. 

Damn.. 

You are my one and onlytrue friend..  Alhamdulillah

NOBODY ELSE.. NO ONE... 

Sleep Over pretty please???

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3rd Feb! Gua amek lesen moto with Amalina babe! Nk jadi minah rempit sepenuh masa!  FUUHHH! MOLEK!!  Shiok!  

Rempit naik vespa ok tk Amalina??? Red Color!

*2yrs ago pic*

Love you so much! Thank you fer making me laugh always! 

*cacat flirt*

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ZZZZZZZZZ

Dearest Daddy

Cooked for dad And Surprised him With a cake .

Love You Babah! 

Dear Babah, you are the greatest man alive in this whole wide world...

through thick and thins, sorrows and happiness, you were always by our side no matter what.. Rain or shine, windy or humid, you work real hard to provide all 8 of us*including Mufasa* shelter,food and love..

You are by far the greatest Hero of all time! 

42 years old ey? Haha! Dont deny, you are old! HEHE! May Allah give you a long life ahead of you, a good wealth, may he always shelter you wherever you are and may HE always, ALWAYS guide you... Even A Million dollars cant repay back your love for the whole family..
 Love you so Much My dearest daddy.. !!

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Me And Brothers closed the lights, light up those candles and Surprised Babah when he just got back home 

Ibu

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Abang Ramdan 

Me

Muhaimin

Danish

Khazindar

Khalishan

Blow em Candles! Make A Wish!

Mufasa! Cover Up please!

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I had lots of laughters today.. Love My Family So Much! 

Nights !

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Life. ? Mine Suck Now, But not Later

Life AhhhLALALALA Life...

Today was a happy day. Im Super Hyper today.. 

 Happy? haha. I may look like I am, But deep down im not. Damn Am i a good actress? A smile and laugh I made could easily made people believe that well, im doing fine.. -_-...

March 2012 will be my EXACTLY one year of being a Full Time CSR at Swensens.. But i think i might just stuck being a normal staff rather than upgrading n raise my rank.. I know people around me been talking behind me and stuffs... Haha. 

Attitude? My Attitude is based on what you see. What you see is what you get. I've tried really hard.. every single day , i've tried to show the best i can do. But humans, they just see the negative part of me. Haha.. 

Well, I dont really care about my work anymore now.. Im already starting to take up courses and all... Im Collecting Certificates, upgrading myself and i swear im gonna change my job, once my skills is getting more and better..Get a better job, my dream job...i dont wanna stuck being at swensens forever...I want a brighter future... 

This is my final decision, this is MY LIFE, no one can stop me. 

3rd February,  gonna enroll bike license, get myself a nice Vespa. I just wanted to open EVERY SINGLE HUMAN BEING EYES who ever looked down on me. 

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Work was fun just now.. But I Miss Dee n Normi so much ='( 

After work, spend the rest of the day with Hubby.. Love You Hazwan... What would life be without You eyy?

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I WANNA CUT MY FRINGE TO BANGS AGAIN PLEAASE!!!
 *this is me in 2008 picture.. LOL*~~~

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Im tired of fake smiles =( 

*Pic Taken: 10/01/2012*
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Dear Brain, dont explode