HAZWAN

I guess its only here i could let my heart out besides talking to Allah for everynight and also.. to get through you...

Dear you..
Its hard to say that my feelings for you has always been the same.. Its hard to lie to you that i dont love you. Its hard to fake out hatred to you. Its hard to say goodbye.. Its hard to make you hate me everyday..
but I have to do this
Listen sayang. what i feel all this while.. I feel that our love is a fake,..
Think again..

I feel and i know your family couldnt accept me for who i am. If they could, They'd never ask me to change my job and accept me for what im working as.. Have my parents ever told you what should you do in life? they KNOW you dropped out from poly, but they said nothing. They see us being in love and they dont wanna hurt my feelings especially for 'sounding' you what job should u do n what you really should do. Maafkan , Tapi ibu dan Ayah awak tak hormat kite, they tak sepatutnya 'sound' my educations and jobs .. because.. IM A GIRL n its like IM the one yang kene kasi awak makan in future...
And remember the day your parents said "Nina tak keje air steward? ada rupa ada height,...." ... "rupa ada, pelajaran takde" ape maksudnye? pernah ke sekali sekala my parents pandang rendah dekat awak? My tears are sincere that day. I hate your family. Belom ada pertalian apa2 dengan awak, diorang mampu buat Anna nangis.. Congrats
And if  they are willing to accept me, there'll be no such thing as "Kitorang belom bersedia"

Hari Raya..
My mom cooked for your family.. And Upon hearing my cousins came over and you cancelled? Your family is not ready to meet my cousins? My mom put aside alot of food for you. My dad is really excited.. finally he get to talk with your parents.. Tau tak berapa tergurisnya hati Ibu Babah kita? Berapa sedihnya Mamin? Berapa Hampanya Shasha pasal dia nak sangat jumpa awak? Sekurangnye tak boleh ke AWAK sorang je yang datang rumah? Awak da kecik kan hati Ibu kita. memang ibu ganas orangnya.  Tapi Ingat... Sebelum kite bercinta, kita pernah cakap, kite TAK AKAN berkawan dengan orang yang tak hormat ibu babah kita,.. Ibu dan Ayah awak TAK hormat IBU BABAH kite.. Ibu awak ade mintak maaf dengan ibu kite pasal she cancel? no she did not.. Anna marah sangat.. sebab tu Anna tak nak hormat your parents...
Sekurangya ibu kite punye keganasan boleh nampak, dia akan tunjuk kalau dia benci pasal perasaan dia selalu ikhlas,,, Keluarga awak? Its the other way round..
My dad lost hope on you. And i love my Babah so much and you know it... I always listen to him...
Im leaving You Hazwan. I
I moved on...
Im leading a new life, without you..
Im stronger without you
happier without you, cuz with you, i am not me... i wasnt how i am when i am with you.. i was super cheerful before i was with you.. never ever did i once spit out any vulgarities before till the day im with you.

Anna mampu berdoa je agar Allah bukakan Akal dan fikiran awak dan keluarga awak yang sangat tak matang tu.. Ajar keluarga awak macam mana nak hormat keluarga orang lain, terutamanya anak perempuan orang... takpe.. ingat, awak ade adik perempuan.. Allah Maha adil,, .. N Moga Allah buka kan Akal dan fikiran awak yang Teramat singkat tu apa tu haram dan halal.. apa tu dosa.. . Minta Maaf kalau bahasa Anna kesat. Tapi Dunia Dan Akhirat Anna tidak akan maafkan kelaurga awak pasal buat ibu babah kita kecil hati, And I will never forgive you what have you taken away from me. ;'( . Hanya Allah je tau. Nanti di akhirat nanti Anna akan tuntut.
Barang2 yang awak kasi Anna, Anna nk kasi dekat orang lain... ataupun Anna buang..
I've deleted All pictures. I dont want any single memories of you.
Anna kecil hati. Hati Anna Terguris. Anna ingin megucapkan terima kasih sangat.
Walaupun Hazwan tak minta Maaf dekat Anna, Maafkan Anna..
Allah sayang orang yang meminta maaf walaupun dia sedang bersedih n dia tau dia tak bersalah...

Do take good care of yourself Hazwan.