FAT! [+My Room.] Tomorrow Raya Kambing!!

Im A Girl. 

Its normal for a girl to say this no matter how 'skeleton' she is..

" IM FAT! OMG! I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT! PLEASE!!!!!"

I feel as fat as the old Lindsay Lohan..

When I look at this picture, i was like. "Damn! That fat body is so my body"

I gotta lose weight!  Look at her tummy, and her thighs..

thats how mine is. -_-''  exactly! EXACTLY THE SAME!!!

*help*

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So I just clean up my room this afternoon.. Its like a Pig Sty With papers,dust,lyrics*i wrote myself*, sketches all over the room..

So i clean up.. And The result is AMAZING! Wanna see it? HAHA!

my KING size bed. I Love you!!

my wardrobe.. And thats my Boyfriend's jacket, sometimes i sleep with it.. It smells like him. HAHA!

My FAVOURITE DOLLS EVER! 

oooh yeah! Wolverine poster, its from my ex-boyfriend, Abdul Shahid*aka Odzadevil/Odza Cookiecore*.. i wonder how his sister is doing, miss her.. And That Iron Man cup! Its So Awsome! 

My Linkin Park Poster, i put it up beside my wardrobe, i have another LP poster, its SO BIG that mom dont allow me to put it up. -__-. Its My room mom . *love u mom*

Pictures Of Me And My BFF. KAYLANNA aka Aqilah. Love her alot! * I MISS U GIRL!!*

I Love this Thing here! That box contains my makeups and combs..  That black pouch is my BF's . Theres his Ipod Touch In There. Gonna go repair. Again. The reason why i love this thing cuz, the colour just attracts me when i step in my room! HAHA! My Favourite shades! Deodorant and my perfume*behind my purse* its the most important thing for me! Im Someone who is really self-conscious on how i smell like. I dont wanna smell like a poo!

A picture of me and my Boyfriend beside my pillow. I woke up with a smile just by looking at it =')

Family. Mom, Dad, 4 Lil angels * my 4 lil brothers* I Love You ALOT!

Some Pictures Of My Beloved Hazwan*Boyfriend* I Love You So Much! 

So Yeah,  I Love my room ALOT! its half orange, Half Pink. * you can see its pink and orange in the first pic*. Wells, yeah.. But i love the pink side more. 

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Tomorrow. Im Gonna go to the mosque to see goats, being slaughtered. 

And then , i hope i get to take home some of the meat! 

Fresh Meat! Muahahhaha!

After Goin to the mosque, gonna spend all my day tomorrow at Grandparents house!

WEEHHAAA! 

I miss them*grandparents,not the goats -_-*

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI TO ALL MUSLIMS!

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Peace Out! MMMMMBEEEEEEEEEEEK!

With a Goatly Heart 

Anna Alanna Tatianna

My Addictions.. *OOOOOOH YEAH GIMME MORE* !!

*panting*

WTF are you thinking when i say Im Panting??? Dirty minded freak! 

just done exercising so. yeah. kindda tired. HEHE!

So Tomorrow, Im Gonna Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy. 

* I rather wake up feeling like Megan Fox*

She Is So Hot! @_@ *still going all lesbo over her*

I would sleep with her if i have the chance to! *wth anna*

Younger Megan. SO CUTE AND PRETTY! HOT!

OH FUCK! Im So Frustrated over this!!

I WANNA MEET LINKIN PARK PLEASE DEAR GOD!!!

I wanna hug and them and say" Can i have your autograph? And take a picture with you?"

8 years, 8 years plus Of Being their hardcore fan till NOW, I STILL dont get the chance of meeting this cool AWSOME band! I remember the first time i listen to them *without even lookin at their faces, when i was 11, my friend brought her discman and let me listen to their song " forgotten". and since then i got addicted and love  that song, and then few weeks later their music video One Step Closer was played on tv and i was like OMG! this is what they look like! The lead singer's SO CUTE! And then i got addicted of his voice, and the band's music. Chester Bennington Will always be my idol. ALWAYS forever and ever!!! WOW! "

*aww look at chazzy's face!!* This is one of my fav pic for years!!

*MELTS* THE FACE! So cute! dear God, If only my husband is this cute! HAHAH! *im so mean*

*cute!!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!*

Chazzy Chaz Is SEXAY!

CHESTER CHARLES BENNINGTON!

I LOVE YOUU! 

his talent, his voice, the music he wrote, his cute face, his tattoo EVERYTHING! i love Chazzy Chaz! ROCK ONN!

If Only i'm allowed to put on tattoos on me, i'll do an EXACT SAME tattoo like Chester Bennington!!  

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So i watched Saw 3D Movie Yesterday, AND ITS AWSOME!!

YEAP! the reason i watched "Saw 3D " is because theres CHESTER BENNINGTON inside. The way he *in the movie* died is darn EERIE! his back skin was somehow glued really hard to the car sit, and he have to pull himself free. so the skin was like torn from his flesh. 

I hope he'll be a top actor!! HAHA!.

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Oh YEs! MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE! 

The first song i listen from them is " Vampires Will Never Hurt You"

NICE SONG!

Their New Album Is Awsome! "SING IT !LALALALAL"

OH MAMA MIA! OnE more Cutie pie! GERARD ARTHUR WAY! LOVE HIM!

That adorable cute face*faints*

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My Favourite Actor

ROBERT DOWNEY JR!!!!!

Love him since Kiss Kiss Bang Bang.!

Watched Due Date And Its HILARIOUS! HAHHAHA!

YOU SHOULD REALLY WATCH ! HAHA!

So this Saturday, Should i say Sunday, 1.50 am.

Im watching this

NO ITS NOT MY ADDICTION OK? I HATE HARRY POTTER! * bby if u are reading, i kept saying i hate harry bladder ok?*

i REALLY hope i enjoy the movie. NYAHAH!

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SIGH! Gotta Sleep! I didnt realize its 1.30 am! @_@ !. 

I hope i dream of Chester Bennington

Peace Out! 

With A LP heart

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Bliss

bulshit

Wait... Patience is Killing Me.

Yeah i'll scream like that with my pilow covering my face. AHHHHHHHHHH!

I wish i could break free from all this crap i've been facing. ='( .. Misunderstandings, personal problems, untouchable dreams,pressures, family,financial, Criticizes, And more..

I made myself believe under all this pressure, theres must be something out there somewhere,, a miracle..

The miracle i've been waiting for. I believe in miracle despite living a live like this. I just dont know whats that miracle i might achieve one day.  

Rainy days makes me stare out the window, thinking about my past . I know past arent supposed to be dwell at. But hey, memories flashes ok? Haha. I remember being a young teenage girl, wearing that school uniform loiters here and there having fun with my bestfriend after school, being that young small girl my mom used to pamper so much, they made me smile.. Even Happy memories from the past made me cry. I miss those moment..

I remember tduring my 13 year old birthday, thats the first birthday my family threw cake on  me. HAHA. n its at a restraurant at Dangga Bay in Johor Bahru. Haha! I wish theres a Birthday cake for me this year. HAH! hey, 3 years straight im not getting any birthday cake. i miss cutting my own birthday cake. 

Those Girls with wealthy/lucky/whatever live, count yourself lucky. I envy you. Whatever you want, you could simply get it in a snap of a finger. Im not that girl. 

Im Not a shopaholic , i wonder how it feels being one. haha. 

How Could i Shop? If I work, money would go to the bills. I wish i were rich. Haha. but whatever it is, Alhamdullilah, thank god i live this normal average live. 

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Im waiting for something, a dream i never gave up on. I know it'll come true. 

A dream i've always wanted ever since i was a young girl. That dream that i always wanted.

Theres always why a dream why dreams made you wait for them. they wanna see will you ever gave up on them.

Some say "some dreams aren't suppose to come true" well it depends on what you are dreaming about.

Well, if you dream to be a cat, isnt that impossible-_-. *wth*

haha. Im just feeling down. i have no one to talk to. so . thats why i blog. 

i have a big family yet i have no one. NICE. no one seems to bother about one another.

FML.

I feel like i only have 2 person who love me in my live

My bestfriend Kaylanna

And My boyfie Hazwan

Oh wells i better get out from my room before mom nags.

With a lonely heart

Anna Alanna Taianna

Dear Mom, Do I Have A Mother?

A Mother. Her Love Is All I Want. 

Im NOT scared to say this, even if I Dont Have ANYONE to love me, even if dont have a boyfriend, the love from my father, the love from my brothers, i dont mind. All I Wanted All this while, Is The love from You, Mom.

I Love You So Much. I tried all my best to show you that i love you. If I Work, I'll try to shower you with gifts., Bake you cakes, TRY to clean the house. I admit MOST of the time, Im REALLY LAZY. I didnt get out from my room, doing my own thing,singing screaming, doing my things.  I Cant be bothered most of the things that happened at home. Im Useless. Im Sick Of All This. 

You are the most, MOST BEAUTIFUL Mother on earth! No Other Mothers Could compare to you. You Are funny, you made me laughed till i cried sometimes. Haha! I Love your sarcastic Jokes. HAHA! Funny. 

Sometimes, When you are mad, you say all those mean things on me that made me go " Does a Mom talk like this to her daughter?". All those mean words, those REALLY harsh words, and you talk like that INFRONT of our tenant sometimes. Where do I put my pride? I NEVER, NEVER Did those HOrrible, disgusting, dirty things before in my life Like u said Mom!!!  HOW COULD YOU?

All the things you accused me... Im swallowing it. I swallowed too much. i swallowed too much till im getting so frustrated about it. i remain silent when u say all those mean things.

When you nag at me.. Do i EVer Yell back at you? Mostly I'll just put on my earpiece, Slam my door, Throw all Things that im holding, showing my anger. I Dont Wanna hurt your feelings.

Sometimes i came home feeling happy, but your face is so sour sometimes. I know you are tired, you're stressed up with your life. But please dont do this to me? Im Not Afraid to say this. Are You Throwing back at me what you faced all of your life? Are You putting all the revenge On me? Im Innocent Mom. 

I wish I Am REALLY your daughter. So that you'll love me 100%. Look at how cik Noor Love Kak Ina Even how "wild" she is.. Im Not Afraid to say this, Let the whole world know!! Im just borrowing, sharing A Little bit of your love with my brothers, your sons. Through all this years, Im your one and only daughter, the days you wash my butt, shower me with your love,buy me tons of gifts, do my hair, dress me up, put on makeups for me. 

I Know It hurts you how i found out how u were not really my mom, i cant help it, put yourself in my shoes Ibu. IF, your mom, the one who took care of you, the one who love you eversince you were a baby, the one who wipe your tears, the one who scold you when you are wrong, the one who cry for you when you are sick, the one who fed you, the one who cure your bruises, the one who you called " Mom", is not actually your Mom. 

I was Only 12 when i got to know all this. I was a young girl. A stupid young girl, who likes to show my tantrum.I Feel Lost. I wanna know who is my real mom that time, And i found out, she is a selfish, fucked-up bitch. And when i found out what she did to me. Do you see my pain mom? Its Still here. I wish i never knew that. When i was 6 years old, I asked Dad why in my health booklet, your name appears different, he says " well, they wrote wrongly". i was ok with that. Im growing up. I cant be dumb forever right? 

Sigh........

All I wish from you is, stop hurting me with your words Mom, . When you were in your bad mood, i asked why sometimes, trying to show that im concern. Though i asked you why you'll nag saying " THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT". what did i do wrong? But Look back, when i, YOU ONE AND ONLY USELESS DAUGHTER is having a problem, she stays in her room all day, she dont eat, her face is sour, she cries to sleep, she's heart broken,.. Do you EVER, EVER come to me and ask. sit beside me on my bed and ask me " whats wrong?" like other moms did? NO. 

You always see the bad side of me. All the good side of me? You Just ignored them all. And You'll nag n nag n nag about ALL THE BAD THINGS about me, even though i didnt even do all those things, and worst! you would nag at me Infront of people!. Where do i put my pride??

And whenever people talk about pride, you are going to NAG about YOUR pride! Whaaaaat?

I cant take it. Just stop saying all those mean things to me. Who am i to you? I've been waiting for you to answer this question for so long. Who Am I To You Ibu? 

In My eyes, You'll always be the one and only Mother. I dont have A Mother.And I want you to continue loving me like Im your real daughter. The Girl You've been taking care ever since she was only 6 month old.

I know you love me right? I know YOu'll be mad after reading this, Please dont. Hug me like you used to when im a little girl if you love me still.. I Love You So Much. And I wont Stop Loving You Though You Didnt see it, God Knows. I Love YOu Ibu.

Quote Of The Day: When All You Feel Is running away and you can't seem to take your feet out from this home. Looking At Those Innocent faces Who STill needs your love. My Lil Brothers.. I Love You

With A Shattered Heart

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Some Memories of me and u, as a friend. HAHA!

Its been deleted

Dad.. Love.. Life.. Dreams..

When all you have is nothing in this world. All you could ever do is, nothing

I used to be that happy girl, to live with no worries, hang out with my friends, laugh, joke around. 

Now i cant seem to find myself. Im Lost. To me the only person who truly knows me is, myself.  I may look happy to you, but do you see the grieves inside? All you see is my smile, my laughter, doing/saying stupid jokes,baking cakes looking happy. But do you see the grieve inside? Do you see my heartache dad? Do you ever ask your one and only daughter, "do you have any problems?'' . I do. I have ALOT to think of. I admit i cause alot of problems, im not the perfect daughter you've ever wanted. But To me, you are the best dad in this world. 

You Asked me something today, i just kept silent and looked at you blankly. You see your only grieve, you share with me your sadness sometimes, though im keeping quiet, im listening, i try to understand.. But, think again, have u ever hear me saying " bah, im sad/moody/angry today" . Since i didnt reply you, you just walked out saying you felt like you are talking to someone stupid. Yes Dad, I am stupid. The Reason why i never replied to someone question is just that, Its not that i cant be bothered anymore, but im sick of this life. Totally sick of it. 

I know I bought my stupid laptop signing the "internet thingy" and now i dont have a job to pay it. Debts. Im sorry babah. i didnt mean to be mean or harsh towards you. i love you. 

 Im a teenager. Im turning 19 in two weeks time. Im Not happy. I am not a happy 19 year old girl., you see me slacking around waking up late at home being lazy.. All you see is the bad things i did. All the goods? Humans. I know you are going to be mad , me saying all this out in my blog. But who do i have? This is my diary, I released all my feelings here. Because no one bothers to listen. Im just plain pathetic, being at home. And if you think i share EVERYTHING with Wan, you are wrong, im sick of keeping my sad heart alone. I want to speak up, but no one would listen. 

Its all my fault, i dropout from school, now look what happen to me.. useless. im full of nothing. Sometimes i told myself, I have no one, i have no one but u dad. But i thought wrong, in this world, im alone. 

Im staying here for shelter. I know one day, im going to leave this house, im one of your miseries.

I Love You Dad.

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Love, I need you now. ='( 

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Life has been unfair? No. I chose this life and i have to make it right. Im Lost. I need someone to guide me. Help me.

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It seems that dreams that i always dream of doesn't seem to come true. Its just my fantasy. But i wont give up on it. i'm gonna look forward on it. 

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Quote Of The Day: Having tears as your lullaby is not that soothing

Note: I wish i was born full of wealth. Why? Why do You made me walk this life ? 

With a crying heart

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Bliss! Hyper! IM CRAZY! + HAZWAN!

Aduhai, Handsome nye. Cair Gue! * nak kiss n hugs please?*

Today, Is such a darn blissful happy woohooooo!day I've had.. Though I dont really feel satisfied meeting you from 1pm to 4.30am. 15 hours 30minutes is not enough. *tamak pe Anna?* . I miss you right during the moment when you send me home ='( . I Miss you so much. Sigh... )'=

Well I went to have lunch with hubby at Tong Seng (bugis), then we went chillaxing in Marina Bay Sands ( I Love It When We sit on that floating thingy in the rain , like romantic kan?) . Then Had Dinner At Vivo's Banquet. (Kesian baby, sakit perut. Get Well Soon. I Hope you fart n burp alot to ease the pain. Dont Vomit kay? Seram Kite Denga Your Vomit Red Colour tau!)

On The Way Home, hubby shared a story he read in the newspaper about a boy lose his arm due to an accident! SCARY! N he described how the arm is! n i imagined it, and idk y the person i imagined to be armless is my hubby! NGERI LAH SEY! SELISIH NA'UZUBILLAH! ISH! 

*Lagi sekali awak talk about accident, slap ur mouth tau! I Love you so much, i dont want anything bad to happen to u! what would i be without u. Sigh* 

Dear Hazwan,

Im sorry for hurting your feelings like really ALOT! I admit im full of ego, but when someone says to me that im darn ego, i just cant accept it. -_- EGO MUCH! Im sorry i pinch u ALOT. And those mean,harsh words i  said, i didnt mean it. Im totally mad sometimes that words just slipped out without noticing your feelings. im sorry i blog about you sometimes. ='( ....  I care for you, i love you, and i miss you. Though you are beside me, i still do miss you, cuz we're gonna be apart when the day ends, and you have to go back to camp. the only time i could see your cute adorable face is weekends, sometimes only Saturday. I love you for just the way you are. I dont freakin care if you have muscles, or you buncit, kurus nak mampos or what. I Love and accept you for who you are. Yes my love for you has changed as days passed. Every single day, it gets deeper and deeper. I cant help falling in love with you every single second. I've never love anyone like i love you. weird. haha. I Love You So much. 

I was touched on how you planned my birthday. Its seriously romantic. Im still wondering whats the "surprise"  you wanna give me. HEHE! Im excited bby! haha! Movie, Harry Porter ey? I promise i wont sleep in the cinema. * God I hate Harry Porter* Oh wells, I Promise Im Gonna enjoy that movie, though how stupid the movie is, I WONT SLEEP! HAHAA! And make sure that movie is awsome! LOL! 

Sigh , I Love you so much lah bacin! GRRR! Geramnyeee! I Miss you so much! There must be something special in you that makes me feel this way! I cant stop thinking about you.!! Im a lucky girl to have you in my life. You are sincere, thoughtful, loving, adorable, faithful, darn concern about me, always talk nicely and softly to me though how crazy i am at times, you respect my family, you respect me, romantic*seriously, u are romantic*, you willing to sacrifice for me, you're cute! and theres more. ^^ . Im sorry i misunderstood you at times. I feel like im selfish, ignorant... Sigh. 

No matter what you do*only the good things*, i'll always give you my full support,and i'll always be there for you when you need someone. I'll always pray for you! I Love You so much tau sayang! You'll always be my smurfie! Like I say, No matter how hot, cute, rich, handsome, nice body, adorable other guys may be, My eyes and my heart are set on only you my handsome boy! LOVE U SO MUCH! I want to live with you forever n ever n ever until the the i K.O . HAHA! Love You Busuk! 

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Walaowei Anna, U imagined alot of things! ISH! Well, not imagine, should i say 'dream'? heh =/ .

I was lying down and i imagine myself singing on the stage, HAHA! Then Suddenly imagine myself doing a baking show-_-, then, imagined myself running the catwalk HAHAH!.. lastly, i imagined myself being a housewife -____-. WHHAAAAAAAT? In alot of things why housewife? why that "housewife" thingy pop up in my head? pelik! HAHA! Tapi macam best kan jadi housewife? Desperate housewife. HOt2 mama. HAHA! Kan da start imagine lagi! rather than being housewife, lebih baik kerja bantu suami. HAHHA! ISH! Banyak berangan! HAHAH! Im laughing alone. gila kan? biasalah orang mabok cinta. sampai fikir nk kahwin! HAHAH! *tapi nk kahwin ngan Hazwan Bin Anuwar ONLY, amek kau! siap nama penuh.* . HEEH! sorry to my readers, nga hyper mood. too much green tea HAHHA! What the hell! Thanks To My dearest smurfie im feelin happy2. pandai aje dia buat kite happy time2 orang nga pms2 macam ni kan? sayang awak! * Ok anna, letter for Hazwan is above, not here*. EH suka hati ah nk type ape aku nk! Stupi conscience,!  Kan da start gila, bebual sorang. k lah. Before i get more carzy, i better go to sleep. da 6 am! * sorry awak, i know i say im goin to sleep, but i cant, ! ni da ngantok ni* . 

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Quote Of The Day: My Blissful Moments Came Only When You Are Around.

Note: RINDUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU... RINDUUUUU SE RINDUUU RINDUUU NYAAA! * mak kau! jiwang nye aku! geli! so very the not me!*

Photo Of The Day: 

I Love This pic! *cute kan? i know*

Yes, Im someone yang sempat amek gamba before shower, before going out n blablabla.

I wanna bite my lips more *winks winks* 

With A Happy,Loved  Heart

Anna Alanna Tatianna

P.s Im seriously madly in love. HELP!

*Only seek help from Hazwan, thank you* 

Peace + PMS

                          

dont mind the face, no makeups

Yeah Home Alone Is Peaceful When You Are Having Your Pms 

No worries, No lil siblings screamin no mom asking you to do this and that, no dad to scream out loud and sing. PEACE! Thats all i need now... Home Alone On My Bed munching on cadbury bytes. I feel like vomiting though too much of the bytes. LOLX. 

Yesterday is not my day, was frustrated over someone, came home n mom was like whaaaaaaat? -___-. Maybe mom's tired. I LOVE U MOM. Well.. Mom bought me that cadbury bytes so. i havent ate the whole day so i'll just munch on this and probably wont eat anything else the whole day. I Lost weight. n im not happy about it, cuz i know i've been stressing much, that is why i lost weight =/. weirrrd much. 

I want to thank this this three friends so much for cheering me up when im down. KAYLANNA, RINZO, and JESSICAGLMBERT. They made me smile and laugh. i appreciate it so much. Love u guys so much!. May God Bless you my dearest friends. And To My Dearest Rinzo Bo>

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY! SEMOGA HIDUPMU DIBERKATI ALLAH SELALU! 

SMILE ALWAYS! WUV YA SO MUCH TAU AYAM!!!!!!!!!! 

Sigh, i wonder why u like chicken so much??? =/

PMS? Whats That?

Premenstrual syndrome include a wide range of symptoms that occur in a cyclical pattern corresponding to a woman’s periods.

Get that Boys? You Dont Know What Its Like To Bleed Every month!

PMS symptoms

• mood swings
• irritability
• depression
• anxiety
• angry outbursts
• confusion or fuzzy thinking
• tearfulness
• fatigue
• insomnia
• changes in libido
• overeacting
• cravings
• alcohol intolerance
• acne
• hives
• abdominal and pelvic cramps
• bloating
• weight gain
• headaches
• menstrual migraines
• breast swelling and pain
• sinus problems
• sore throat
• worsening of chronic conditions like arthritis and ulcers
• difficulty with coordination, being more prone to accidents
• dizziness, decreased balance
• heart pounding (palpitation)
• nausea
• fainting
• urinary problems

See That Boys?  Ur Penis Dont Bleed Every single months, sooo.... Screw you.

Quote Of The Day:  We'll All Laughed At Gilded Butterfly

Note Of The Day:  Boys, If your gf is mad dont say " i know you are having your pms" to her, you are making her bloat up even more. 

P.s i miss my boyfriend...

Photo Of The Day: 

Taken 12 midnight 5th November

Caption: Its Belowwww..

Duh what are you thinking? this girl is having her PMS. She's Just Not right in her brain. *yes im not right in the brain-_-*

With a Crazy Mind

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Thanks You So Much My Dear

Yes My Eyes Is Watery And Wet And Water Is Falling Like Waterfall Now.

WHATS GOTTEN INTO ME?? I know Im Having my fucktard pms now but why? See that? Its Rare for me, MEEE ANNA, the girl who never say out vulgarities say out or write out the word FUCK. THERE i've said it FUCK YOU!!!! *that feels better, and im NOT REFERRING TO ANYONE*.

I Left my house in the afternoon just now with a happy heart, thoughtless, blissful brain.... I WAS SO HAPPY! SO FUCKIN HAPPY!!! All I could ever think of is, Have fun eat with you n all kind of blissful shit.

I Have Told you so many times! So many times. DO NOT TALK TO ME ABOUT GETTING A JOB!!! I KNOW WHEN IM GONNA GET A JOB OK? I KNOW WHAT IM DOING!!!!
Go tell your mom im not getting a job cuz probably im shifting home!!!! IM HELPING MY MOM!  she needs help packing!!! If She is the one packing, who's gonna cook??? who would help her but me!!!!  I dont know just how many times you would say " Open the newspaper, theres tons of jobs there, EASY... Pick one, go for interview" u said that everytime u meet me sweetie! oh wait! u forgot u said that right? SAYING THINGS IS FUCKING EASY!!!!! * i dont get it why im crying real hard like a  child lost her mom in a shopping mall.*..
I know IM DUMB! IM STUPID! I HAVE NO EDUCATIONS!!! I HAVE NO MONEYY!! I HAVE NOTHING! Can u just at least have some patience with me while im jobless?? At Least Give Me the strength, make me believe that i'll get a better job after all this? Rather than keep on asking me TO  HURRY GET A JOB? I know what Im doing bby. i seriously KNOW WHAT im doing.. Im NOT as DUMB as YOU think!!!! I PROMISE! I'll get a FUCKIN JOB once all the miseries is gone. My Family NEEDS ME. Its easy for you to say, " just forget all the misery, get a job, concentrate on saving money" . I, have been with my family for 19 straight years, when YOU are not around, the moments when i need someone to hug me, the people who come to me n say " are you ok?" and hugged me, is my FAMILY. I HAVE to think about them FIRST! THEY COMES FIRST IN EVERYTHING! though how naggy my mom could be, i'll do just anything for her! I LOVE HER!  U wanna live with me? Adapt To my live boy!
And Whaaaat? suddenly u call me " KAU"? We are NOT FRIENDS like we are ok? Why do u call me " KAU" All of a sudden?? U know im PMS-ing! U Always LOVE to piss me off do u? why??? And SERIOUSLY? u dont have to say dont have to share with me about your conversation with your army friends about " I know my girl wont leave me, but I will" . U call that a joke??? U said you were kidding around? I almost cry just now. Did u even saw that? Did you feel it?  how would you feel if i told Aqilah * my bestfriend*   "Oh , that smurfy, i know he will never ever leave me, but i will" .. How Would YOU Feel? Though u didnt realise, u hurt me today. thanks for the tears bby, i appreciate it.
 WHY BABY WHYY!!!??? Now Im stressing about job! THANKS!! THANKS FOR MAKING MY HAPPY DAY ENDS WITH STUPID TEARS! I was seriously happy just now. so blissful.

I appreciate how you plan on how to celebrate my birthday* then u call me an ungrateful gf just because i hate harry porter*, and how you wanna sign on and stuffs. i really do. i know you will succeed in live. i know you can do it!.. i know you are strong! I'll always be there to support you. i promise.

Quote Of The Day: A Smiling Girl, That doesnt mean she is happy

Note: Though im mad at you and totally upset. I need a hug from you.. and your fingers to wipe my tears


Photo Of The Day:

Yeah Natural Original Hair. Messy.. Sigh. 

Taken at 1pm on 4th November 2010

With Teary Eyes.
Anna Alanna Tatianna

Certificate Of Hypocrisy Goes To.

Read On And See If You Are The One Who Should Fill In Your Name In The Certificate Of Hypocrisy.

Well It really gets on my nerves when my friends or just someone says " I've NEVER live in hypocrisy before, seriously!" OR Put On their Facebook status, MSN's Personal Message, Or Twittered " STOP LIVING YOUR LIVE IN HYPOCRISY" PPFFFFT! Like, COME ON!!! WHO ARE U TO SAY THAT TO SOMEONE?? Look at yourself!

* Even the cute little kitty i saw that scratched me, it look so innocent n i was like hey pussy2 , stroke its head n its like "enjoying it" n suddenly "backstabbed me n ARRRR scratches! Acting Innocent is Hypocrisy!! " ='(

anyways...

Everyone, and i mean it EVERY SINGLE ONE OF U, THE HUMANS IN THIS WORLD, is Living in hypocrisy... 

In case u don't know,:

Hypocrisy is the act of pretending to have beliefs, opinions, virtues, feelings, qualities, or standards that one does not actually have. Hypocrisy involves the deception of others and is thus a kind of lie.

Get It? No? * dumb asses*

Here Are list of SOME of The Hypocrisy some of you May Have made. 

> Lies..   * Human Tell Lies, To Be "cool", Well known,beautiful, to make someone happy and not hurt them etc etc*

> Illuminati 

> Makeups

> Contact Lenses 

> Colour Of Hair * If U ever Dye It*

> Smiling When U are Actually Hurt

> Doing Things Unsincerely

> Being A total Angel Infront of someone, the opposite behind them

> Heels * Shorty!hehe*

> Saying "LOL" when you are not even laughing

>Saying You Like Something/Someone  while u hate it just to please someone.

> Hair Rebornding, Perming 

> Plastic Surgery

> Not Being Yourself Just To Be Cool.

> Back Stabbing

> Complimenting someone just to get a compliment back?

Well there Lots More To Be Said, Humans Seems Unsatisfied of what they are, it seems that they prefer to live in lies . To Live In Hypocrisy. Before you say anything. I LIVE IN HYPOCRISY, I do wear makeups, contact lense, i lied to make someone happy cuz im afraid of hurting their feelings n blablabla. Its OK to live in hypocrisy if your intentions are good. But its NOT OK if you are going to tell someone " I NEVER LIVE IN HYPOCRISY BEFORE" now that! You Are a big Hypocrite! By Saying that, CONGRATULATIONS! The Certificate Of Hypocrisy Goes To You! ^^V 

Quote Of The Day:. Welcome To The Town Of Hypocrisy!!!

Note: Its Ok To Tell Lies My Dearest, Humans Are NOT PERFECT. We Are Only Human, Separated By Our Thoughts. So Hang On To Them Or You'll Find you might get Caught In A Bad Hypocrisy. 

Picture Of The Dayy:

We Should ALL get This Mug for ourself. ^^V

This is All My Thoughts. No Bad Intentions In Me. <3!

With Lotsa Lies

Anna Alanna Tatianna