lalalalalalaaaaaa

The very last week of January been tough for me.. Hmm.. 

Yet I learned ALOT of things.. 

I learnt who should I call a friend, or are they just better off to be ignored..

*P.s- Normi just text me saying she miss me so much and how am i doing and miss gossiping and laughing with me n she says working is bored without me.. ISNT SHE the sweetest thing?*

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28 Of January 2012

Went For Xpress Professional Bridal Makeup Class, And Amalina was my model!
And i got A Certificate! Im a certified Bridal Makeup Artist for Xpress makeup for brides! YAY!
We were the noisiest there i guess? Cuz we just cant stop laughing... HAHA!

 Amalina Is Adorable!

isnt she GORGEOUS!???
Amalina is an angel, she'd cheer me up when im down, and when im about to cry, she'd gave me a tight hug that always put a smile on my face... Love her so much!

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High Fever. Darn IT! 

Zzzzzzzz

Dear Darla Aqilah, I Miss you so much. =(
about me and Hazwan. its personal... no one knows what about us , its just between the two of us... 

And The Ones I Love...

first, this is my blog.. suka hati aku ah nk tulis apa

Stranger

Its not that i didnt want to talk to you on purpose... 

The people surrounds us just cant quit wanting us to have a 'fight' among each other.. Well, you're the one who said that... And I dont want that to happen.. Im scared if we were to argue.. Aren't you scared ? I think we are now. puas hati? Therefore being silent and no contacts is the best...  Theres reasons why i didnt want to talk to you.. First, I feel like im a burden to you, you are always quarreling with your SOMEONE when it comes to me.... Second, i feel like a FUCKING DOG cuz u have to ask permission from your SOMEONE to KEEP me as a friend...  WTH!? What if i said to you " Oh u wanna be my friend? let me ask my Boyfriend" ... FFFFFFFF..  Sumpah Aku macam nk maki je siot! Nasib aku sayang kau! 

Theres more but i dont wanna state it here... It hurts.

But wait .. What If you were the one getting treated like this?????

I understand you.. And I am trying to understand you more but i cant.. Aku bukan Nabi la weiii nk sabar banyak2!  Have you ever Spare a thought of me? Have you ever wonder how i feel when you treat me this way?? Nk lepak ngan org lain boleh lah pulak... Aku? Hah! Malas.... 

I did all this so that you hate me... I dont want you to quarrel with your someone anymore. I just want you to be happy.. Thats all i want..

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that one person....

 If you wanna show how upset you are towards me sampai kau tk nk salam aku... Tu kau pe pasal... If only i could exchange your heart with mine and let you feel how MORE upset i am....If i dont care, I would just dash in the kitchen while you carry that heavy bananas in your hands while im carrying heavy plates.. If i dont care, I wouldn't ask _____ where are you while u went to the toilet during closing.. If i dont care, I wouldnt even take out your bag and punchcard for you.. If I Dont Care, I wouldn't Tap your head and hand out my hand to shake your hand when i wanna go home... No matter how pissed off i am towards you, bila kau nk salam aku ada aku ckp tk nk? Haishhh

haha. buat apa la nk kesah pasal orang yang tk ambil kesa pasal aku kan... hati ni naik merajuk.. da naik malas,,,  naik penat..

Da ramai kawan pe.. \

IM JUST ONE OF YOUR ENTERTAINERS..

But I love you so much darling. ='(

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Hubby fetch me home... N i cried telling him about how i felt about what i typed out above ^^^^^
He cheered me up and made me laugh. Haha! 

Damn you are one cute clown my dearest Hazwan... Shave your mustache or die.
Had Fun doing Shooting for Mike's movie thingy!!! Its nice being an actress you know? HAHHA! 

Miss you so much...

Love you so much Hazwan!

What would life be without you.. Only you knows how to make me smile and whats hiding in my heart

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Dearest Aqilah, Theres alot i need to share with you.. 

I really need to see you but you are always busy with your life and im always busy with mine.. 

Damn.. 

You are my one and onlytrue friend..  Alhamdulillah

NOBODY ELSE.. NO ONE... 

Sleep Over pretty please???

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3rd Feb! Gua amek lesen moto with Amalina babe! Nk jadi minah rempit sepenuh masa!  FUUHHH! MOLEK!!  Shiok!  

Rempit naik vespa ok tk Amalina??? Red Color!

*2yrs ago pic*

Love you so much! Thank you fer making me laugh always! 

*cacat flirt*

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ZZZZZZZZZ

Dearest Daddy

Cooked for dad And Surprised him With a cake .

Love You Babah! 

Dear Babah, you are the greatest man alive in this whole wide world...

through thick and thins, sorrows and happiness, you were always by our side no matter what.. Rain or shine, windy or humid, you work real hard to provide all 8 of us*including Mufasa* shelter,food and love..

You are by far the greatest Hero of all time! 

42 years old ey? Haha! Dont deny, you are old! HEHE! May Allah give you a long life ahead of you, a good wealth, may he always shelter you wherever you are and may HE always, ALWAYS guide you... Even A Million dollars cant repay back your love for the whole family..
 Love you so Much My dearest daddy.. !!

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Me And Brothers closed the lights, light up those candles and Surprised Babah when he just got back home 

Ibu

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Abang Ramdan 

Me

Muhaimin

Danish

Khazindar

Khalishan

Blow em Candles! Make A Wish!

Mufasa! Cover Up please!

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I had lots of laughters today.. Love My Family So Much! 

Nights !

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Life. ? Mine Suck Now, But not Later

Life AhhhLALALALA Life...

Today was a happy day. Im Super Hyper today.. 

 Happy? haha. I may look like I am, But deep down im not. Damn Am i a good actress? A smile and laugh I made could easily made people believe that well, im doing fine.. -_-...

March 2012 will be my EXACTLY one year of being a Full Time CSR at Swensens.. But i think i might just stuck being a normal staff rather than upgrading n raise my rank.. I know people around me been talking behind me and stuffs... Haha. 

Attitude? My Attitude is based on what you see. What you see is what you get. I've tried really hard.. every single day , i've tried to show the best i can do. But humans, they just see the negative part of me. Haha.. 

Well, I dont really care about my work anymore now.. Im already starting to take up courses and all... Im Collecting Certificates, upgrading myself and i swear im gonna change my job, once my skills is getting more and better..Get a better job, my dream job...i dont wanna stuck being at swensens forever...I want a brighter future... 

This is my final decision, this is MY LIFE, no one can stop me. 

3rd February,  gonna enroll bike license, get myself a nice Vespa. I just wanted to open EVERY SINGLE HUMAN BEING EYES who ever looked down on me. 

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Work was fun just now.. But I Miss Dee n Normi so much ='( 

After work, spend the rest of the day with Hubby.. Love You Hazwan... What would life be without You eyy?

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I WANNA CUT MY FRINGE TO BANGS AGAIN PLEAASE!!!
 *this is me in 2008 picture.. LOL*~~~

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Im tired of fake smiles =( 

*Pic Taken: 10/01/2012*
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Dear Brain, dont explode

Universal Studio With Hubby

Oh I Love My Blog's Background music..... Im Feeling Sexy And Sweettttt!! LALALALA!!
Anywayyyssss... 

I was a Lil bit scared to stand beside Shrek cuz he looks creepy and he kept rubbing his palm to my shoulder while shooting this pic.. O_O CREEPY MUCH.. And the best of all I Feel Petite standing beside this 3 .. oops, i mean 2 Ogres.. HEHE!

Went To USS with Hubby! FOOH! It was A-AWESOMES! 

First got up from bed at 7.30* i was supposed to wake up at 6.45*..

Met Hubby At Jurong Point at 8.45am for breakfast at Macdonalds, A Lil chit chat here and there.. As usual, I Cant Stop Talking When I See His Cute Face! HAHA! 

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First I Rode the Battlestar Galactica Cylon, the one with your feet hanging in the air and the roller coaster just flips n turns you upside down! Damn Hubby screamed funny " WAAH WAAAAH WWAAAH!" HAHA! Cute! Second I Took the Battlestar Gallactica Human.. Me and Hubby thought The Human one isnt as scary As the Cylon..  But WOAH! It was High up in the air and ZZZZOOOOOMMM drop u down like u are gonna die! Thirdly I rode, The Mummy roller coaster.. Damn It was DRAMATIC! but i LOVE IT! When the Roller coaster move backwards i thought its gonna fall back with HIGH SPEED n i panic.. HAHA! The Fire And Explosion And All! I LOVE ITT!!! JURASSIC PARK IS BORING! just sit on that floating thing and one big round n you are done... -__- Moving along to Far2 Away... Watched A theater about Shrek n stuffs, watched Donkey LIVE at The Knight Club,And we took a kiddy Dragon Roller Coaster. HAHA! Walk along To Madagascar, A Crate Adventure, its a River Boat Ride.. Cute Stuff.. Last Ride We Took TRANSFORMERS! It is so REAL! The Long Que was worth while!  Didnt Took ACCELERATOR, Cuz Im scared i might Puke and die with painful headache ... End Of The Day, We Took ALL The rides again Except For Cylon .
HAHA! Damn I Had Tons! AND TONS OF FUN!

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This betty boob shop is ADORABLE

KING JULIEN IS MA FAV!!! 

Aww my pwince charming 

My Soulmate

A Pakistani Girl In USS

Not a girly person but i was DAMN EXCITED n went " BBY!! CASTLE! PRINCESS CASTLE!!" when i saw this Beautiful Castle!

Battlestar G Human! 

He Is Lookin right At me!. O___O

AWESOME RIDE!!!

Love The Scenery

HAHA! Adorable Freak.

Blue Dinosaur?

Im In Hollywoood

He Is Actually VERY Hungry at this moment. Love U
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Bought Caramel Crisp Popcorn At Garret! YUUMS!

Went to vivo n had Dinner, Long Bus ride home n slept all the way in the bus!

Reached Jurong Point, Window Shopped A Lil here and there, ended i only bought a small pretty pouch!
Bought Old Chang Kee And He sent me home .. Walking Home with you beside me is bliss...!

YAWWNN! 

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz   

Tired!! 

Fireworks On The Pills

4 January 2012....

The fifth day of an unbearable fever,, Yeap... The fifth day.. 

I bought a pretty rock black leather dress for countdown but yet, Im counting down the pills i took at home.. 

30th Of December*Friday.

 Went out with BFF Kaylanna/Aqilah for shopping before work. I was fine... I guess.. Then i kept coughing suddenly, n i told Aqilah " i think im gonna catch a fever" N i kept telling her over n over again.. wonder if she's annoyed. haha..

At work, starts at 5pm, the same day, Friday. As soon as i reach work i lay down on the sofa seat at Table 35 where we always had our briefing.. Damn i really feel weak. I didnt talk the whole day at work.. Just mute myself up cuz i really felt like im gonna puke if i make a sound.. Hubby Fetch me from work, he bring me out for supper cuz he knows i didnt eat the whole day. *what are you? psychic?*  Then he kept asking whether i could make it for countdown the next day.. so i say.. YES YES I CAN! Went home Mom n Dad said i look pale n i just plopped on the on the couch with a sigh.. Dad touches my forehead n says "Its just as hot as fire" o.O... showered, Ate a Lil burger Dad bought, ate panadols, then i went into a deep sleep..

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31st December 2011

I CANT GET UP!!!!...The Pain in my head is UNBEARABLE.. I cant even open my eyes! I almost Break down to tears... I relax myself n continue sleeping n when i slowly open my eyes Its already 2pm... I was supposed to work at 9am O_O . My Manager Called my Parents N so my mom said I was having high fever n blabla... Mom Forced me to wake up n shower. Done with showering, i wait for Hubby to fetch n send me to the doctor... Family going countdown, =( n me? SIGH! Hubby Accompanied me at home, he bought me porridge n fishball soup, he fed me food n medicine. Thank you for taking care of me when we were supposed to go for countdown.... He is such a darling. ='). High on those pills i took, i fell asleep on his lap .. ZZzzz..

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1st January 2012..

Weeeeeeeeeeeepeee new year -_- .. Another day where i CANT OPEN MY EYES! I force myself to get up but i couldnt! The Spinning in my head is STILL here.. PAIN! AHHH! N i forgot where my family went to n im alone at home. I felt like vomiting so i ran to the toilet. When im alrdy inside the toilet, I feel like shitting, so of course i took off my pants idiot, n do my thing, n at the SAME FREAKING TIME, i vomit n shit , AT THE SAME TIME! Seriously only Allah knows how i felt. i cried in the toilet. Washed up n cleaned up, i couldnt walk. My legs are all wobbly, My head hurts.* i really thought this is going to be my last moment on earth O_O* . N then. I CRAWL back to my room... Exhausted, i fell asleep.. Family Came home, N mom n dad bought me sliced fish soup, wishing me to get well soon.

2nd January2012

Hate This day...*still very hard to wakeup!* Mom wake me up, she made me Hot Milo, Made me toast with chocolate spread, I took just ONE SMALL bite of the toast n then, i dont feel like eating, Just no appetite. I drank the milo, took my medicine, N Sleep Again. I woke up, Walking to the toilet a drunk lady,wash my face, made myself a hot milo, sat in the living room, staring at the ceilings... I really could hear voices telling me to sleep. I took almost 30 mins to finish up a cup of milo -_- , went to sleep again. I woke up around 8? Went to the toilet having this feeling of vomiting. i was inside the toilet for i think more than an hour? I cried cuz the pain is unbearable. I perspire alot. I sat on the toilet floor. n Everyone starts to knock the toilet door calling my name,worried if im ok. The knocking sound that they made irritates me, its like they're knocking my head instead of the door.. i try to get up, i cant.. N then i heard my Hubby's voice calling me asking whether im ok. I cant make a sound.. Im feeling too weak. Hubby use a knife to somehow unlock the toilet door n there i am sitting on the cold toilet floor weeping like a little lost girl..Mom n Dad wanted to call the Ambulance cuz i was dehydrating . My lips a chapped n pale., fingernails turn blue, n i was shivering...Hubby help me get up n he made me toast with butter, n Hot Milo, Then Made me Bread with kaya, i CAnt taste a thing, nor can i smell . =( .  Sigh..... before sleep, my fever shoots up..

3rd January2012

I woke up Saw Khazindar wearing his Primary School Uniform. He is Primary One Now.. N his shirt is the smallest size, yet i think i could put in one more kid in that uniform. Its big. Cute Boy. I Just smiled looking at him not knowing what to say. Still drowsy.. I forgot what i ate ... Oh, Bread n Cold Milo. Ate Medicine, Then Ibu ask me to sleep. Ibu went To Khazindar's School n when she got back i asked to to accompany me to Jurong Point To buy some stuff... On The Way Home, My Fever Rises again, N I cant stop Coughing.. My Chest Really hurts each time i cough. I cant breathe Deeply. If i do... Damn its PAINFUL!! Went Home Mom N Dad Ask me to eat, Still No Appetite, So Mom poured me A glass of milk, I drank it, took my medicine, N fell asleep.. N Yeap, My Fever Shoots Up again...

4th January.*today*

Supposed to work at 9 today , still on MC but i wanna work.. But im too high on those colorful pills, I woke up late. Damn. Woke up n walk like a drunk lady again... My mom made fish porridge. I hope later before i went to sleep my fever wont rise.. I Really wanna work... My head is still spinning ... GRRR!  Sigh.... 

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Ughhh My Headdd. ZZzzzzzzz