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I dont feel like blogging anymore. too many kpo people... *roll eyes* . After they read my blog, nk step marah2. mampos ah

Im Sorry Baby.

Yeah.. This is what im doing now at almost 5 am.WEEP

I just Got back home... Great... first, in the afternoon, a man shout vulgarities on me without a valid reason... seriously im praying he would die tomorrow..

NOW..

Oh YA ALLAH!!!!!

What have i done? what have i done? I hurt My Hazwan's feeling today . AWESOME ANNA..

aren't you incredible? I made him cry, i made myself cry. I Made US bleed. i Made us heartbroken. Im a bad girlfriend.. And How sweetly he smiled and say its ok, everything is gonna be alright while i see it through his eyes that he is dying slowly and painfully inside.. I saw his heart shatters through his innocent eyes.. Though heartbroken, he hold my face n say ''I love you so much,and please dont you ever leave me''...

I promise, I'll never leave you alone... Though he's feeling pissed off, he caressed my hair and told me im beautiful. Though  his heart is in pain he kissed my forehead n hug me n whispers to my ear that he love me so much... Still smiling, still laughing, still disturbing me as he always do, still tickles me, still kiss my cheek just to make me smile even though he's holding a broken heart...

I promise.. I'll never leave you..

Today, today is the first time i ever felt that i have a boyfriend who really love me so much.. He's Afraid to let me go.. too afraid..Afraid i might leave him.. Afraid of losing my love. He wants to tressure every single second  he spend with me.. he wants to savor every kiss i gave him.. he wants to live with me forever. He vowed on his life for me.. And im being sooo Ingnorant..too ignorant to noticed all that until today...

Thank you for still giving me your trust n love n care n everything bby.

I have a curse... No matter which guy im close with.. NO MATTER WHO HE IS.. 

I cant be close to any guys.. i cant... while was close with my ex bf... as a friend last time,,, he fell in love with me...

n my another, n another n another ex... we were close friends before, they fell in love with me..

My Hazwan... My dearest beloved Hazwan... We were close friends... Best of Best guy friend i EVER had... We fell in love, now look where we are. =)

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Im scared.. Im scared To be close with any guys, they'd end up falling for me n worst, i might fall for them too. And i already did.. Im In Love with someone else, how bad can i be?... But..still.. i will choose my Hazwan to be my soulmate. I'll love him with ALL My Heart.. I'll give him all he want just to make him happy. I love You so much Hazwan. Im sorry. =').. Cant wait to see you tmr =')

I Love You....

With a Crooked Mind

Anna Alanna Tatianna

GAH GAH!

Yeah

Went to meet my friend, Shiqa fer a short while just now... 

Theres This Girl Kept Staring at me at Jurong point's Popular.. I dont know what the hell she wants . i look at her n smile... she roll her eyes in despise . 

what did i do?

Shiqa laughed at me n said " dia jealous kau lawa, buat bods sudah girl"

Going home ...

I accidentally bumped into this dude underneath a void deck nearby JP. he drinking bubble tea.

GAHH! here it goes...

Me:Sorry2! *friendly smile*

Dude: What? u blind? Am i too big here? or are YOU too big? cannot see im drinking?

Me: I said Im sorry? I didnt mean to bump to u like that i..

Dude: When u walk, look straight, dont keep talking.

Shiqa: Woa woa! Chill2.. she didnt mean it.

Me: yeah. Im sooo sorry .. *smile*
Dude: *shout vulgarities damn loud*(KNN EFF U)

Me: Eh Lu apa hal!? Aku tak sengaje PE? Harap Je Melayu! Perangai KAYU! Lek AH!

Shiqa: O_O Na, da na..

Me: Orang da mintak maaf, ACCEPT JE AH! yang kau nk membebel kat muka aku asal? Air kau pon tak tumpa pe? Kecoh Asal? I've said sorry, i apologize, nak aku sujut tapak kaki kau pe? PIGIDAH! Ngan perempuan kau boleh ah buli! PENGECOT! KECOT!

Dude: suda ah!! *walks away with That STUPID face*

Me: EH BODOH! KAU NK G MANE TUU!

Shiqa: NA!!!! DAH LA GIRL!.. *calms me down*. meh duduk.

Me: *Mumble to myself* aint he got no brain? i accidentally did that! Ape saje jee lah! Aku tak faham lah ngan budak2 sekarang. Mane nye besaaa je they think they are. 

Shiqa: Aku tak pernah nmpk kau ngamok macam tu... selalu sweet je. Terkejot sak aku... kau ok tak? kau fikir kan ape nii? sampai up macam tuu?

Me: i dont know. somethings bothering me... since you already bought your school stuff, lets go home. i wanna go home

Shiqa: k ah. aku anta kau, seram2 kau cari mamat tu..

Me: if i could, i'd kick his ass just now

Shiqa: kau gila bodoh, yok balek. yok yok.

*she sends me home*

sweetnye kauuu.. buat facebook la bods!.

GAH! i dont get it why people nowadays love to pick up a fight randomly. i know i shouldnt have shout back at him. due to all this gang violence thingy... BUT. my sweetness has its limit... i could blow up anytime i want.. u step onto my head? think again... I might step ON YOUR FATHER'S HEAD! GAHHHH!

Damn It!!!!!

Now Home Bitter Home.. I dont wanna be here...

Sigh.......

My Mind , theres something bothering me...But , i dont know what the hell is bothering me. EFF!!!

No Mood no mood no mood. Make me smile. GAH! &%$#@!#$%^&*()

A Lil This n That about Me

A Complete Weirdo

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Well i feel like writing on my blog.. yet. i dont have a topic.. so... Here's a little something ABOUT MEE..not gonna list down my biodata though.

Only school,close, people i love knows my real name.. AHH, not gonna tell you. Anna Alanna Tatianna is just a frame name... Theres a story behind it though... Why my nickmname is Anna n stuffs.. My family calls me Nina. Thats my nickname at home.. 

4 little angels... my 4 little angles my little brothers. They are the bestest give God has ever gave me. 

Born to be freeee!! HAHHA!

Im someone who's REALLY weird... even my family says so... At one moment, Im Happy.. Out of a sudden, i'll be so moody.. I talk alot.. I have an arrogant neutral face.* thats what people say* People misunderstood me for someone who is really stuck up because of my face.. But when i smile.. K, u can see a lil friendly face there.... i guess? some say, i have a friendly face. UGH humans.. They never fail to make me confused.. 

I love to have fun.. Do crazy things, daring games. Dare me to shout in public, i'd do it. I have NO table manners, i eat with my hands, slurp out the soup like nobody cares.. Hey im hungry, n im enjoying my food, that matters.. I wont die if i have no table manners. I AM NOT FEMININE AT ALL. u may see me as a sweet girl. but no im not.. Im rough at times... I talk loud, i laugh loud sometimes. im not the giggly giggly type of girl.. I hate wearing a dress.. N its hard to see me in one.. I ever was forced to wear a dress, and i went all grumpy all day.. C'mon... I dont like short skirts.. i dont mind short hot pants.. But SKIRTS, ok. NOT ME.

I smile alone. Yes i do. ANYTHING funny that crosses my mind could make me smile.. i may look crazy, but who cares, theres something funny going on in my brain ok? I love to smile. I do.. I smile at random people... n if they dont smile back, i'd tend to be a lil pissed off n go '' Why are ppl so unfriendly'?'..

I may be hard headed. but.. i have a softheart*cheeyy*.. I melts easily... Like ice cream been placed in a scorching desert.. * k da start merepeks*. well, thats my weak point...

Sometimes i do skip n jump around being crazy. I love to take funny face pictures. i LOVE taking pictures. the Camera loves me.

Watch 500Days Of Summer, Cuz... THAT girl Named SUMMER... Im so much like her behaviour. in terms of when loving someone, treat ppl, suddenly dance here n there.. im just like her... Even my Bf n my lil bro n my family says so.. HAHAH!

Im weird... Oh sweet popcorn, im craving for you.

With a weird mindset

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Mr cutie

Oh! uuuuuu!!!

Yes I was mad the other day . And honestly I dont know what im mad about.. Maybe i knew, naah.. I dont know what I'm mad about.. Why do you need to have a feeling that I dont love you? I dont miss you? I dont need you...

Do You know sometimes i tried so hard just to forget you for a second. JUST FOR A SECOND... But i cant. Theres always you in my mind. I told you i hate you, i dont miss you, i dont love you. You know they're lies. I Love You so much. N when you're not with me, Im missing you really bad. I need you to be here with me. Though sometimes we might hurt each other's feelings, hey...I will never stop loving you.. As I told you i dont love you just now, i cursed myself in my heart. You look so innocent and wondered what wrong you've done. 

Those innocent eyes.. I want to stare deep in them forever can I? Those cute lips, I want them to whisper out beautiful words to my ears like they always do forever n thats the only lips i want to kiss can I? That tender arms and hands. I want To Hold and cling on to them forever can I? Those Smooth cheek. I want to kiss and pinch them As i love to can I? Those Legs. I want to be the one who walks with them forever can I? That Heart. I want to be the one who feel the warmth n the love from it, and i want to be the only one whose going to care of them forever can I? 

I cant resist looking at your face. Be it can i resist hugging or even kissing you. I love you so much.

I Love You So Much.. I never want to have you out from my life...=') All i can say is,It was Enchanting to meet you...

Heres something for you 

You've changed my life from a blink of the eye
The feeling in this heart of mine I cannot deny
You've made each day one I'll never forget
Everything we go through I will never regret

You are the gold I will treasure till the end
You are my soul mate and my best friend
You've done so much for me which I'm thankful for
You will always mean the world to me and so much more

You are my guardian angel sent from Heaven
The best thing in my life
You are the meaning to the word love
My heart agrees and so would any dove

You have chased away every single fear
You are my tissue that'll wipe away any tear
You've given me life that I could live worthwhile
Thank you for the laughs and every smile

My days are a dream that has come true
Every day is beautiful all thanks to you
Now I have found what I've been looking for
It's you heart and soul and nothing more

You've showed me the world in such short time
But we've got the rest of our lives - a whole lifetime
Ill end this line with something you should already know
I love you so much more than these words show

I Love You Hazwan..

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When You say ' I Love You'

Its Not Into My ears that you whispered, You Whispered It To My Heart..

When You Kiss Me.

Its Not My Lips That You Kissed, Its My soul..

With A Lovely Heart

Anna Alanna Tatianna

i love you Hazwan

I Decide To Be Free and happy. Kaylanna & RIn.

See Me Fly!!!

All I Wish For is.. To Be Freeeee...

I did ALOT of thinking today. Too much of it. 

Life.

My Life has always been down. Too many problems to handle. I made a decision for myself today. Im Gonna stop thinking about getting married and live a life as a bloody wife. I Dont want to be married. Though its with someone whom i love so much. Im Sorry Boyfie, this is the life im going to make. And IT WILL happen.

Watch me.

 I want work real hard. Save up on those money. I need to buy a bike for myself.. My dream bike.*vespa..sigh**..Buy the things i want. And mostly... I want to travel the world. And when i do, i want either my family or my bestfriend Kaylanna  to be with me. If I could, i want both of them to be with me. Have Fun.. Taste all the foods around the world, know other tradition and culture,breathe in their air, step my little feet into that beautiful cold snow, watch beautiful colours of leaves changes during autumn, put my feet n bathe in a beautiful blue sea, look at all the world wonders, walk to the beach, take a picture in a middle of a field full with pretty sunflowers and more... Isnt that beautiful?

 No one could stop me.

The movie of my life, Im the main cast, That main actress, The producer,the creator, The director, Im The One Who's Going to shout CUT! and ACTION! to myself. Not anyone else. But only God knows when will this movie going to have an ending. .

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Life is short., Before i die, i want to make my life at least a meaningful one.

Balloons And Thank You To My Beloved Kaylanna And Rinzo.

Honestly, No matter how many friends i have,, I feel like i only have the both of you. You both never fail to put a smile to my face. And thank you fer giving me all the strengths when i need them most. Thank you for always bring me up when im down. Thank u for all the laughters u brought to my life. Without Humor; life sucks, Without Courage; Life Is hard, Without Love; Life is hopeless, Without friends like you; Life is impossible.. =')  I appreciate u both so much... And thank you Allah or giving me both of you as my friend. 

Kaylanna 'Kerr'*ehem*

*remember this pic? we were sec 4, n we went to jurong east  library supposedly to study for our N levels, but ended  up we just went there and laugh n laugh n laugh*

Dear Kaylanna My Laughing Gas, 

I love you so much..  Thank you for being a wonderful sister. Thank you for taking my tears away and replaced it with an anti-stop laughters. Eversince the day i got close to you, i never stop thanking Allah for such a wonderful friend. There is no such thing as problems,sadness,frustrations when it comes to you. When i see your face, all my problems and miseries seems to go missing, all i think about is,''hey, im next to an angel, im gonna have fun, who cares about all the suckish stuff''. I Love you so much... 4 years of friendships, we can make it till 40 years *Insya'Allah panjang umur*.  Imagine , how we look like when we are old? HAHA!! n still camwhore together. how cute is that? "DIAMLAH CU! NENEK NAK AMEK GAMBA DNGAN NEK KILA NI!" HAHHAH! k stop.

LOVE YOUUUUU!

I'll always pray for your happiness in life.. may you suceed and have a beautiful life baby.... I dont like it when you are feelin down n gloomy u know?

LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO MMMUUUCCHHH!!!!  *tackle hugs n kiss ur pipi*.. 

You are my sweeeeeeet baby angel.

Rinzo Bunneh

*Oh yer lookin at my name eyyyy*

Dearest, DEAREST,dearest Mr Wabbit!!

Though i never met you before, I felt like i've known u for ages! Each time you went online or if i got an sms from you, i'll smile like retardly wide, 

thank u so much fer putting a smile on my face! and sometimes you made me laughed till my stomach hurts u know? You taught me alot about life. Like seriously when you talk about life and stuffs, you made me go O.O and i'd read attentively. Love you so much! No, seriously, I wuv ya so much dearest bro!! <3<3<3!!!

I wish you all the best for your band, and rock on. Dont give up. And I wish you all the best in life and may you succeed in studies n everything... Love ya sweetheart! <3<3 ! 

*Hugs n pinch your nose.*

With A Happy mind,

Anna Alanna Tatianna

I Tried so hard..Can i hold on?

My heart is no Diamond

Heart Changes... A Human heart could just easily change...

Remember. Im a human too.

My Heart.. It could endure.. It could hold a sharp pain.. it could hold a painful feeling of holding back pails of tears...

But, my heart is no diamond. It might just look strong..Its just strong on the surface, but not all the way through.. Its fragile. too fragile that it might just break into millions of tiny pieces. And believe me, you might not be able to fix them back no matter how hard you tried. And even if you are able to fix them back, i could still feel those painful cracks you caused..

Empty Promises

Words. Promises. When you Say out words that you'll change for the better, Or simply gives promises to the person you love, say it out from the bottom of your heart. Dont just open your empty mouth, say out everything with a smile, n simply forget everything you said at the next second. Then the promises would be just like your mouth. empty. 

Hurt

Im hurt. Hurt too much by empty promises n lies.. Though im still smiling, still standing next and holding on to you saying '' i love you'' to you. n  yes , i love you. i love you so much. 

before that bullshit happened.

I used to be that sweet girl who never yell, never shout any vulgarities to just anyone, never shout, never rebel, never want to pick a fight, a little less stubborn.. 

Do you remember?

But when it happened, when you took it all away from me. Im lost,i hate myself, i barely look at myself in the mirror n go ''she's so beautiful/happy'' like i used to. I hate you. And i still dont get it why i love you still. What have you done to me? I hate myself so much. i think about it too much. This is not who i am. Can you bring back that bubbly girl back to me? the one you said who talks alot, rather than keeping her silent all day long saying nothing. I hate myself. I hate myself I hate myself. Why? I feel broken, shattered. Somehow, i dont feel you fixing me. Worst, i cant feel you around me like i used to. I dont feel your presence. When i miss you, I couldnt see you when i close my eyes like i used to. 

If only this is possible, bring me back what you took away from me. And i will haunt you , i swear, bring it back to me... i need my happiness..

Sigh.. Prove to me you are different...

Dont Make my heart completely ignores you.

I love you still..

With A Broken Heart

Anna Alanna Tatianna

Im sick Of Those kids in Facebook!!

Whats Crack-A-Lackin Yawws!

Last Three Days... Stomach Flu Was Killin me!

I could barely sleep that night. Keep waking up to puke n shit.. damn. 

And then high Fever.. n then deadly headache, n im still so stubborn to stare at my lappy.. Im ok today.. yeah..

Thank God,

Work Work.. Cross Finger.. 

Bike bike.. *nibbles finger nails*

Yes yes! Come to Momma My baby Vespa! I wanna Ride on ya!

*roll eyes*

OHHH!!

The sweet baby popcorn!!! *whhaaat?*

THIS IS MY FAV TOPIC OF THE WEEK!

NOT the fav topic. the topic i currently hated alot..

My home page, my face book home page is filled.. totally FULL with people/ little kids below my age *19.. ehem*..

i dont care who's gonna read this n go.. Wait.. is she talking about me? well yes im talking bout you...

I hate it when People argue with their boyfriend and then they would tell the whole fucktard story on facebook... GET OVER ITTTTT!!!!!! DARN IT! Wheres your pride? Your Dignity? Your Privacy? If you cant handle it and wanna let the whole world knows about your awww so typical relationship, go live a single life please?

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Im addicted to this picture.. Oh wells..

k byye

With a Crooked Mind

Anna Alanna Tatianna