I Tried so hard..Can i hold on?

My heart is no Diamond

Heart Changes... A Human heart could just easily change...

Remember. Im a human too.

My Heart.. It could endure.. It could hold a sharp pain.. it could hold a painful feeling of holding back pails of tears...

But, my heart is no diamond. It might just look strong..Its just strong on the surface, but not all the way through.. Its fragile. too fragile that it might just break into millions of tiny pieces. And believe me, you might not be able to fix them back no matter how hard you tried. And even if you are able to fix them back, i could still feel those painful cracks you caused..

Empty Promises

Words. Promises. When you Say out words that you'll change for the better, Or simply gives promises to the person you love, say it out from the bottom of your heart. Dont just open your empty mouth, say out everything with a smile, n simply forget everything you said at the next second. Then the promises would be just like your mouth. empty. 

Hurt

Im hurt. Hurt too much by empty promises n lies.. Though im still smiling, still standing next and holding on to you saying '' i love you'' to you. n  yes , i love you. i love you so much. 

before that bullshit happened.

I used to be that sweet girl who never yell, never shout any vulgarities to just anyone, never shout, never rebel, never want to pick a fight, a little less stubborn.. 

Do you remember?

But when it happened, when you took it all away from me. Im lost,i hate myself, i barely look at myself in the mirror n go ''she's so beautiful/happy'' like i used to. I hate you. And i still dont get it why i love you still. What have you done to me? I hate myself so much. i think about it too much. This is not who i am. Can you bring back that bubbly girl back to me? the one you said who talks alot, rather than keeping her silent all day long saying nothing. I hate myself. I hate myself I hate myself. Why? I feel broken, shattered. Somehow, i dont feel you fixing me. Worst, i cant feel you around me like i used to. I dont feel your presence. When i miss you, I couldnt see you when i close my eyes like i used to. 

If only this is possible, bring me back what you took away from me. And i will haunt you , i swear, bring it back to me... i need my happiness..

Sigh.. Prove to me you are different...

Dont Make my heart completely ignores you.

I love you still..

With A Broken Heart

Anna Alanna Tatianna