Tears..
Why do they flow during the moments i dont need them? I just want to be happy..
Fake smiles, fake feelings. Im just sick of this.
I miss you.. i miss you so much... All i need id you right here cuddling like we always do... You kissing my forehead n stare deep in my eyes n tell me how much u love me like you always do. I love you so much.. I know you love me too.. I miss you too much that i cried wondering do u miss me too..
My heart is fragile.. Too fragile.. how many times do i need to say that im sensitive.. Every LITTLEST wrong doings n words would hurt me.
Dear you, why are you so clumsy? You'd tend to hurt my heart without you knowing it.. N im mad/sad/ gave u a silent treatment.. you'd ask me WHY as if you didnt did anything wrong..
Dear you... I love you so much.. Every single Day i wish , I chant prayers in my heart to Allah making sure He's always protecting you, always sheltering you, never make you sad n always put a smile on your face..
Though how you bring me down, You'd always be my hero..
No metter who mad me laugh who made me cry who im with... Theres always you in my head.. All i wanted Is you beside me always...
If i could live a million years, Then i'd wait for you for a million years..
My love for you is eternity,.. Insya'Allah..
Maybe Im not The only one for you, But you are the ONLY one for me..
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Im not good in playing pretend.. Each time im mad at you, i wont pick up your phone call.. I wont text you back.. I cried all night on the days we quarreled ... Tears became my lullaby..
but thinking of the days you stabs my heart, its still here.. It hurts.. Hearts are like mirrors.. When its broken, n u try to fix it... You could still see the cracks on it..
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My words are harsh when im mad.. Im sorry..
Sigh.
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*Im a Loner. I dont have a gigantic group of friends . People dont miss me. Im never the first person anyone looks for in a crowded room. Im just me. Take it Or leave it*
They wonder why i start blogging again..
Who cares if i need anything to share about.. Who cares when i cry?
Its more like im talking to myself when i blog..
Who cares if im sick.// Who cares if im actually crying inside while i fake a laugh on the outside..Fuck you n i show u that... NO ONE cares..
Im a loner child,
I prefer to be alone..Hmmm Lets seee..
I do have a bestfriend but she is busy with work.. Sometimes i do wish she could meet me up just for awhile when im having problems JUST for a minute will do to cheer me up.. Or call me in the middle of the night when i suddenly share her my probs.. i always wish she was here.. i always do.. I feel like im always a nuisance to her always sharing my probs n all.. Honestly sometimes i feel like u r not happy being with me anymore. i just felt that way.... But Naah.. Haish. But I love u Aqilah, i always do..
My guy? He is BUSY in camp serving this country. How do i get to share with him.. besides... Gahhh.. i dont know what to say..
Other friends? I dont know.. I dont even really 100 percent trust the people i love..
Humans are backstabber. They Pretend.. U might never know if they sees n sound n act like they love u but deep down they just wanna kill you somehow.. We Humans Are two faced mother fuckin creatures...
I dont trust anyone. N thats why i dont have much friends..
I only trust myself.. I HONESTLY DONT TRUST A SINGLE HUMAN BUT MYSELF..
Thats me
I Never Wanted To Say Goodbye.. Never
Anna Alanna Tatianna
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